ImJulie

I never used to get it.....all those addicts and alcoholics who sat in those chairs at a 12 step meeting that said, "Im grateful to be here" or "Im a grateful recovering alcoholic".
What??!!
If anything, I was wishing I DIDNT have to be there. I'd rather be home in my bed, rather be shopping, rather be doing anything than sitting around with a bunch of drunks and druggies talking about Higher Powers.

23 days into recovery....thats where I am. 23 days and today Im feeling grarteful that Im at least teachable. That room, that room full of druggies and drunks IS a power far greater than myself.....that room is teaching me how to live life on lifes terms.
Im grateful that Im teachable.

ROFL

Wow Jule, that's great. 23 days and you're already SO much farther into recovery than I am after what should be 75 days for me if it weren't for a couple of slips. I'm just beginning to embrace AA - I was too stubborn at first. Your story here and the blog that you posted are so inspirational.

BUTTERFLY-7

8 I COULD IDENTIFIED WITH U JULIE WHEN I WAS MANDATED IN 1999 BY A JUDGE TO GET MY ACCT TOGETHER,I WAS MAD AND ANGRY I NEVER HAD GOTTEN THE CONCETP OFF RECOVERY UNTIL THIS TIME AROUND I BEEN PRETTY MUCH IN AND OUT OFF A.A &N.A BUT THIS TIME AROUND IT WAS THE PRAYERS OF MANY AND MY DISIRE TO QUIT I'WAS JUST SICK AND TIRE OF BEEN SICK AND TIRE I FINALLY REALIZE THAT THERE IS NO SUCCESFULLY FUNCTIONAL ADDICT. I WILL B MAKING 3-MONTH IN 4-9-008 HURRAY HURRAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ImJulie

Hurray is right dear Butterfly! Congrats to you. Congrats to us all....as hard as this is...this living clean and sober, I wouldnt go back to my old way of living.
I still have days, many many many days....where Im just plain angry that *I* am stuck with this disease. I dont want it....I want to be "normal".
Then someone comes along and reminds me, "Tough patootie Miss Julie. You DO have this disease....and you can choose recovery or you can choose death....."
Im picking recovery.