hi. Sorry for the panic.
I am just back from rehab and my girlfriend of 4 months decided she wants to come over basically every night and see me.
I've always been more of an introvert (with or without the "disease") but now it's like she is using the "disease" as an excuse to see me. I get that she missed me during inpatient but I feel trapped and also smothered.
She also doesn't have a home of her own, it's either her mother's house or my apartment which is very small.
I feel a little manipulated into sharing it with her after only 4 months when my recovery is on the line and I'm trying to get to meetings.
When I tell her I need space to get to meetings she says "well then, we can just take a break," like that's so dramatic! or she says, "well i can just hang out at your house."
I don't know why but after 4 months i'm not comfortable with someone just hanging out at my house.
i really love her and want to be with her. But I am confused
is it the disease that is making me feel like I want to run for the hills or who I am??
Augustine (yes, a gay woman)