Trying to break the cycle
Well. I do believe since my last post it would be proper to say my addicted husband made away with the cash and he went full blown relapse. The first time I heard from him he was in full panic attack due to some illegal activity. I told him he needed to turn himself in for a warrant. He called police and they could not use the computer system to check. (some police department computer system have been seized) The officer decided to take him to the hospital. 4 hours later he was released. He eventually found his way to a crisis center. As he knows what to do he's been here so many times. He called the next morning and a lot of us know how it goes. Detox, rehab in or out patient for 6-12 months. If they make it thru. I have to repeat the 3 C's often. Now he's on a calling frenzy with request for assistance to locate info on a facility for when he leaves there. I appreciate his efforts. Through my al Anon class I have to work on me. I can't say yes to things I don't really want to do. It's not my life or mess to figure out. I mean I had to go to whole effin classes and discover this wonderful group (blessing dressed up in addiction). Boundaries. I'm not doing the same thing again. I'm working on me. He threatened to not sign the medical release form for me since I won't check. Told him that's his decision. I'm changing me. I'm sure it's hard for him to we he is use to his tactics working perfectly well. I'm going to go no contact for some time. I'm thinking a week. Give him time to adjust to the meds and non usage. I probably will not ever not talk to him forever. We have a son. But it has to be redefined. A lot of my co dependent ways and trying to force my wanted outcome has got me here. He has to do the work. If he wants to stay sober he will if he wants to get high he will. He doesn't know where I live and I'm happy with that for now.
Meanwhile I will keep working on me. I can't get to an Al Anon class so here I am.
So much time passes by during this time with our loved one who is sick with addiction. It heart breaking 💔. I pray one day he can have a healthy relationship with his son.
Last edited by Lynnjenn2; 07-20-2019 at 03:15 PM.