Protecting yourself and the children is huge, well done.
Focus on your own well being, and the wellbeing of the children, of course, and life will get better soon.
I am cheering you on.
For my task is not to seek some
nor make the darkness bright.
It is to walk with Faith amidst the gloom
Undaunted, Unafraid & Undiminished
by the darkness
~Raleigh Michael Smith
From Poem Valley of the Winds