can't stop worrying/ overthinking. Don't know what to do!

Old 02-23-2018, 08:25 PM
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can't stop worrying/ overthinking. Don't know what to do!

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First and foremost I am not a drug user. Most of my family including both parents, 2 aunts, and one cousin all have pain pill/opioid addiction, my father has also been a major alcoholic my whole life and I found my mother overdosed back in April. I am 20 years old and drink on occasions. I very recently met a guy who is 25 and we've been dating only for one month. ever since our first date we felt such a strong connection for eachother, we both come from broken homes and both have families that suffer from addiction/mental health issues. we felt so comfortable around eachother and telling stories all night. It was nice to have someone to talk to about these issues and not feel embarrassed or ashamed of my upbringing. The more we are getting to know one another I look into things and find out that he himself has actually went thru drug/ alcohol abuse and has a criminal history along with one year away in rehab. I became skeptical of this but looked past it ignorantly because I felt as if I was already growing feelings for him. Something about him draws me in because we have so much in common even within our personalities and interests. Nights when he was sober or normal we would stay up till 6am talking, laughing, telling stories and having good conversation He never pressured sex and never brought it up until we were both comfortable. I loved how he was just as broken as I was, he said he just wanted a relationship and someone who was going to love him. During the third week of hanging out is when things started to go south....I noticed constant changes in mood and behavior. nights I would sleep over he would be grumpy and quiet in the morning but then he'd "go to the store" and come back sweating, talkative, fidgity, and always rubbing his face. I asked what he took and he said xanax. One night I caught him nodding out and slurring his words falling asleep, nearly choked in his sleep and woke me up in a panic. this was also the night I realized $95 was missing out of my purse. I was so hurt, we had just made it official. after everything I told him with my own family robbing me and all the pain they caused me I was very dissapointed and upset with him because it basically confirmed that he is actively using. Of course he denied it when I confronted him saying that he was "heartbroken I'd ask that" and I was going to stick to my guns and not contact him. We had not spoke for a couple days but I naively texted him asking if he was ok. He ended up admitting to me that he does have a problem, mainly with pills and xanax and that he was so ashamed and he didnt want to lose me, he didnt want to drag me down and that I was too good for him. after talking, he said that he wanted to change for the better and I said I would help I decided to give him another chance, I spend the night again a couple days and everything seemed fine. Then it happened again. he comes home in that weird hyperactive mood and looks and sounds as if hes on crystal meth. I ask his mother and she said no, he takes xanax and gets a reverse effect cause of adhd. I got upset with this behavior, later on in the day it started calming down and he was back to normal and himself that night. we wake up this morning and decided to be productive. we were both up early, made coffee smoked a cigarette, showered and he got ready to go for an interview for a second job, we had a good morning he and I were both in a good mood. I'm driving and as we're almost there we get a call from his house that his mom is missing $100 and they want him out. he immediately starts crying and exclaiming he didn't do it and that he's being blamed. I couldn't say much because I knew he had taken my money before. My behavior around him at this moment began to switch, I wasn't noticing change in him even though he was trying to be productive I see the pattern and realize I'm being manipulated and suckered into it, but part of me doesnt want to believe that and wants to believe he truly does care and that he just needs help. Anyways, he winds up getting the job but notices a change in my mood he says he feels like everyone hates him and hes a burden. we get back to his house and he winds up being kicked out. He comes back to the car crying still repeating that it wasn't him. I'm at a stop sign and he gets out of the car and tells me "run away from me, run far away I'm a burden" I felt heartbroken. I so desperately want to help him but I know theres not much I can do. I'm so worried about his safety, I have no idea where he is or if he used, or if he overdosed somewhere. I know we have not been together long at all but I find myself caring deeply for this situation and especially because I've had my own family members go through this very situation this one really hits home and I can't stop thinking about him . Please give me advice on how I should move on.
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Old 02-23-2018, 09:20 PM
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Are we seeing the same guy?? Omg. Girl, move on. He is being manipulative, he already stole from you and he stole from his mom. Sounds like he is using you. Run and never look back. Otherwise, you'll be set up for more heartache. Don't trust a word he says either.
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Old 02-23-2018, 09:34 PM
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I agree I'm not putting my self thru more hurt over this guy its just not worth it. You can't help someone who don't want to be helped.
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I agree I'm not putting my self thru more hurt over this guy its just not worth it. You can't help someone who don't want to be helped.
Exactly. I totally understand where you're coming from. Also, i lost my father to drugs so i also know how you feel there too. I also ended up being lied to and used, and heart broken after a year of seeing a guy lying to me about being clean when in reality it was using heroin behind my back. Just like your guy, we got a long Well, had a lot in common, we would talk all night until we fell asleep. But none of it was authentic. Plus, the drug of choice with the addict will always be his top priority. I always felt like i wasn't a priority with him and now i know why. You seem like a nice girl, i dont want you to get burned like I did. It's a horrible sign he already stole from you as well. You deserve much better.
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Old 02-24-2018, 07:25 AM
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we've been dating only for one month.

there are 38 lines of text AFTER that statement. listing all the crazy crap that went on during your ONE MONTH of DATING. lies, drug use, stealing from you, stealing from his own MOTHER.

cut your losses. get this guy behind you and keep moving far far away.
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Hi Rosxex

I am sorry for your situation.

Its sounds like you just started dating an active addict.

Please believe him when he told you below:

"I'm at a stop sign and he gets out of the car and tells me "run away from me, run far away I'm a burden"

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