Here we go again...
 

It has been quite a while since I posted. My niece, who became addicted to meth in 2004, over the past 12 years committed felonies, spent time in jail, went through rehab twice, got sober, finished paralegal school, got a job with steady employment, moved out.... And then went back to drugs. I thought she had been sober since 2008, now I don't know.

I was with her through all of this because her parents are absent due to their own issues, all the time working on my own recovery as a codependent.

I tell myself she returned to drugs because of her boyfriend, her ADD, her dad getting cancer, etc. but not everyone responds to that by returning to drugs.

I am heartbroken.

She woke me up calling in the middle of the night having a fight with her boyfriend turning physical. I was able to convince her to get out of the place.

I know better than to rescue. I know I can't go through all that again. I am 60 and just don't know if I have it in me.

Very sad right now.

I'm so sorry. It's really hard to watch those you love make bad choices.

Ultimately, she does drugs because that is her choice. She has to get to a place that she decides the pain of using is more than the pleasure of using. It's a hard thing to do.

All you can do at this point is encourage her and pray for her. The rest is up to her.

Hugs.

Praying for you and your niece. Welcome back. Magic