Collecting hugs.
 

AH has dropped off the planet again. Haven't seen him since Monday morning, when he got mad at me for waking him up to say goodbye to the baby before I took him to daycare. At some point on Tuesday, he must have come back, popped the (shoddy) lock on the apartment door with a credit card, and (apropos of nothing whatsoever) cleaned the house, then left again. All this while I was at work.

I know I need to keep on keepin' on with the divorce summons/serve him, etc.

This, however, is one of those weeks.

I don't have it in me, guys.

I just don't have the heart for it.

You are on your way to putting a plug into that drain! Hang in there!

can you see the divorce process like an elephant and just take one bite at a time?? sometimes i have to make bargains with myself....ok, i'm not cleaning the house, but i CAN get ONE load of laundry IN to the washer - and turned on. it may be a day before i am back TO the washer, but that's ok.

dealing with monumental life changing stuff IS taxing. and tiring. but it is important not to lose momentum completely.

Anvil, baaahahaha! I totally get you. I do that with dishes. Aka, "If I just do like...5 individual dishes 5 times today, all 25 will get done."

And I definitely put things in the dryer over & over again because folding is for suckers.

The only way I got through graduate school for electrical engineering was being in the moment. I didn't think about the next day, or the next week. I would be in the moment.

And when I finished one week, I rewarded myself by scratching that week off my calendar.

Break it down bit by bit. Don't get ahead of yourself. Accept you're going to have bad days. And that's normal, isn't it? It's not like going through a divorce is supposed to be fun, even if narcotics weren't in the picture. Be in the moment, and keep pushing forward.

Getting crap done is like feeding a wood chipper.......don't push crap into it too fast or it bogs down.

(of course Anvil's 'gonna say........."what is the optimum speed to feed a DUCK
into a wood chipper?")


QUAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAACK!!!!

................................................. And that's how we make duck mulch!

Huuuuuuuug!! When they blow off the baby, that just cuts me up. I remember my husband loudly got out of bed and took his pillows and stomped out of the room because the baby was making adorable cooing sounds at 8am. I said "Aren't you afraid to miss out on these moments?" He turned around and looked me in the eye and said "No."

Of course he has great fathering moments too. But it's so unpredictable. I know one thing, my house is always at its cleanest when he's high.. heroin gets my kitchen spotless.

I'm trying to get up the strength to file for divorce as well. Prayers your way.

Hugs Mnh.