He's gone ......
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Join Date: Jun 2012
Location: USA
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It has been almost 2 weeks and the hole left in my life is something I have to face. The anger is beginning ... why, what happened, heart, laced heroin, suicide ? Addictions rob us all. Life wasn't gentle or easy, but that doesn't stop the heartache. I just miss him.
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Joie...there are no words to express how sorry I am for your loss.
Losing a loved one so hard under the best of cirumstances and in the circumstances you and so many others here have lost...it is only that much harder.
You have a beautiful soul and have dealt with so much so gracefully and you will deal with the next chapter similarly...grieving comes first...just be careful to make sure that you stay connected.
Love you so dearly particularly as you walk through the aloneness that is grieving...no matter how much support there may be...it is an individual experience that happens in the midst of all the activity that the world and the people in it are engaged in as you go through this time of mourning and letting go.
Losing a loved one so hard under the best of cirumstances and in the circumstances you and so many others here have lost...it is only that much harder.
You have a beautiful soul and have dealt with so much so gracefully and you will deal with the next chapter similarly...grieving comes first...just be careful to make sure that you stay connected.
Love you so dearly particularly as you walk through the aloneness that is grieving...no matter how much support there may be...it is an individual experience that happens in the midst of all the activity that the world and the people in it are engaged in as you go through this time of mourning and letting go.
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Join Date: Jun 2012
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I'm sorry that you lost your husband foreveralways. thank you for commenting. Sharing helps. Please send me a private message if you would like to chat. I'm glad that you are here. Hugs for you and your heart. I know how it feels 
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Join Date: Nov 2014
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I found that keeping a journal is helping me. I am on Vol. 10 and I visit the cemetery every Sunday to visit him and his mother. He wanted to be buried next to her and I will be buried with them both when my time comes. I had the best husband for 8 years and then poof he was gone replaced by this guy that could not have been different. I continue to struggle that I was never able to have a conversation with my AH after the other guy took over. Well, a few times in rehab. This is a more complicated type of death for me because there is often a lot unsaid for those of us left behind and it is a death that did not need to be. Once that disease gets hold of our loved ones it is just too painful to watch. We all see it coming at them and they tell us "no one tells me what to do" and then it is over. Sometimes I cry over his grave and the other time I yell at him. I am not at the point that I can laugh about our good times. I try to see him in Heaven seeing everything so he can show me when I get there. Take care and take your time processing your feelings. Today my dog he got me 18 years ago died and I am trying to imagine them running together.
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Join Date: Jul 2014
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I am sorry for your loss and hope you will stay with us. One of the biggest mistakes I made was leaving SR when I thought my AD was ok - addiction is a lifelong battle for everyone and I will keep you and yours in my prayers.
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Join Date: Oct 2012
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I have been meaning to log in and respond to your post for some time. You have my condolences and my prayers. God rest his soul and may he find peace in the afterlife. May you find peace on earth.
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