Really need guidance and advice
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Really need guidance and advice
Hi everyone, So I just joined and am really struggling. When I met my husband I knew he had several years ago been addicted to narcotics, but after spending time in rehab he was in recovery. He got seriously sick in August. But instead of recovering he seemed to get worse and a different type of worse. I spent countless nights crying, worrying, researching, thinking he was dying of some terrible disease. We went to doctors and specialists and the ER so many times. But he kept getting worse. We moved up our wedding because I was so scared. Meanwhile the medical bills kept building up. Two weeks ago we were in the ER for another medical problem. He told me out of no where that he wasn't sick, but had been using heroin since September. He said he didn't want to lie anymore and he wanted to get help. (By the way I am aware that it is ridiculous that it didn't occur to me that that was what was wrong but it really didn't) So he went to a detox program. Our insurance kicked him out after a week and he's staying with family and doing outpatient. He wants to come home. But I'm angry and so incredibly hurt and scared. I want my marriage to work and he says he wants to do anything possible to come home once he feels stable and ready. But I'm struggling. Can he recover? Can I recover? Any advice and support is much appreciated.
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Welcome to the Board. I'm really, really sorry that you're going through this. But you've come to a really good, really safe place, and I'm thankful for that.
Other members will be by to greet you, but as is my wont when greeting newcomers, I've got some things I'd like to share with you.
You have every reason to be angry. You also have every right to be extremely skeptical of what comes out of his mouth. He does, after all, have a history of substance abuse. And now, he's got a history of lying through his teeth to you. He drops the bomb after you get married and after the medical bills start piling up.
Can he recover? Sure. Will he recover? I don't know.
More importantly, can you recover? That's an unequivocal yes. Coming here and posting is a good start. Learning what it is you're up against is essential going forward. We're not marriage counselors here, scared88. The only thing I can tell you is once you learn about what you're up against, you have to make decisions that you believe are in your best interests. A lot of those decisions will be a function of what your AH does going forward. Not says. But does. His words are empty. Only his actions matter at this time.
We have a lot of women here that have been in similar situations as yours. They will pipe in over the next day or so. When they do, pay close attention to what they share with you. There's a lot of hard won wisdom on this board. Learn. Absorb. And then follow your own moral compass to decide how you can best recover.
And again, Welcome to the Board.
Welcome to the Board. I'm really, really sorry that you're going through this. But you've come to a really good, really safe place, and I'm thankful for that.
Other members will be by to greet you, but as is my wont when greeting newcomers, I've got some things I'd like to share with you.
But I'm angry and so incredibly hurt and scared. I want my marriage to work and he says he wants to do anything possible to come home once he feels stable and ready. But I'm struggling. Can he recover? Can I recover? Any advice and support is much appreciated.
Can he recover? Sure. Will he recover? I don't know.
More importantly, can you recover? That's an unequivocal yes. Coming here and posting is a good start. Learning what it is you're up against is essential going forward. We're not marriage counselors here, scared88. The only thing I can tell you is once you learn about what you're up against, you have to make decisions that you believe are in your best interests. A lot of those decisions will be a function of what your AH does going forward. Not says. But does. His words are empty. Only his actions matter at this time.
We have a lot of women here that have been in similar situations as yours. They will pipe in over the next day or so. When they do, pay close attention to what they share with you. There's a lot of hard won wisdom on this board. Learn. Absorb. And then follow your own moral compass to decide how you can best recover.
And again, Welcome to the Board.
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Hi Scared,
Aww Im sorry what youve been through. Reminds me of what I went through back in 2013 with my husband. Probably your still in shock. I was for a while is why I say that. Yes he can recover but he will need good treatment and it will take time. His emotions, motivations, and thoughts may all fluctuate and its pretty normal from what Ive seen. I got through it, so I believe you can too. It will take time and may not be easy for a while, lot of scary things happened, tons of raw emotions, lies and heartbreak. Parts of it you will each need to work on alone, and parts of it you will need to work on together to fix the marriage. You might want to think about counseling at some point, its been good for me and my husband.
I think also it would help to read up on addiction and get a good understanding of how it works, because usually the lies are not personal, its driven by the addiction. Almost everyone here will point to lying as part of their story.
We are doing a book review on another thread and it has lots of info in there on addiction, might be helpful to you. Has helped me a lot.
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...-families.html
One other thing, do you have good family support, friends? My family and a few close friends were a real blessing to me. They knew me, knew us and went above and beyond with their love and compassion. Dont be afraid to share with those closest to you.
Aww Im sorry what youve been through. Reminds me of what I went through back in 2013 with my husband. Probably your still in shock. I was for a while is why I say that. Yes he can recover but he will need good treatment and it will take time. His emotions, motivations, and thoughts may all fluctuate and its pretty normal from what Ive seen. I got through it, so I believe you can too. It will take time and may not be easy for a while, lot of scary things happened, tons of raw emotions, lies and heartbreak. Parts of it you will each need to work on alone, and parts of it you will need to work on together to fix the marriage. You might want to think about counseling at some point, its been good for me and my husband.
I think also it would help to read up on addiction and get a good understanding of how it works, because usually the lies are not personal, its driven by the addiction. Almost everyone here will point to lying as part of their story.
We are doing a book review on another thread and it has lots of info in there on addiction, might be helpful to you. Has helped me a lot.
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...-families.html
One other thing, do you have good family support, friends? My family and a few close friends were a real blessing to me. They knew me, knew us and went above and beyond with their love and compassion. Dont be afraid to share with those closest to you.
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Thank you both so much for your replies. It is really helpful and comforting to get feedback.
Regarding family and friends, we had just moved to a completely new area. I do not know many people here. But I have told my family and a few close friends via phone. I guess I'm struggling to continue sharing with them because they are very opinionated. Their anger at him feels like an additional burden on me.
Regarding family and friends, we had just moved to a completely new area. I do not know many people here. But I have told my family and a few close friends via phone. I guess I'm struggling to continue sharing with them because they are very opinionated. Their anger at him feels like an additional burden on me.
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Thank you both so much for your replies. It is really helpful and comforting to get feedback.
Regarding family and friends, we had just moved to a completely new area. I do not know many people here. But I have told my family and a few close friends via phone. I guess I'm struggling to continue sharing with them because they are very opinionated. Their anger at him feels like an additional burden on me.
Regarding family and friends, we had just moved to a completely new area. I do not know many people here. But I have told my family and a few close friends via phone. I guess I'm struggling to continue sharing with them because they are very opinionated. Their anger at him feels like an additional burden on me.
And keep on coming here there are great people here who understands and who will offer advice and support and who will help you through this.
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Thank you both so much for your replies. It is really helpful and comforting to get feedback.
Regarding family and friends, we had just moved to a completely new area. I do not know many people here. But I have told my family and a few close friends via phone. I guess I'm struggling to continue sharing with them because they are very opinionated. Their anger at him feels like an additional burden on me.
Regarding family and friends, we had just moved to a completely new area. I do not know many people here. But I have told my family and a few close friends via phone. I guess I'm struggling to continue sharing with them because they are very opinionated. Their anger at him feels like an additional burden on me.
Hi Scared,
Multiple dr. appointments, ER visits, detoxes, and IOP for 8 months and it only got worse.
One of the best sentences I have read is that if only love could heal them.
I am learning that actions are the only factor in their recovery, so listen to them very carefully.
Keep reading on this board, everyone on here has helped me immensely in understanding the pain.
Hugs to you!
Multiple dr. appointments, ER visits, detoxes, and IOP for 8 months and it only got worse.
One of the best sentences I have read is that if only love could heal them.
I am learning that actions are the only factor in their recovery, so listen to them very carefully.
Keep reading on this board, everyone on here has helped me immensely in understanding the pain.
Hugs to you!
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