Today I turned 40
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Today I turned 40
Today I turned 40. It was rather uneventful- a bit melancholy, a bit reflective and a small tiny bit hopeful. Of course I heard nothing from the ex(heroin user in recovery). I don't really know how I feel today. A bit lost, a little sad, hopeful that it can only get better. It was somewhat lonely. My main joy came today from my 7 yr old daughter. She baked me a cake and made me a card and was anxiously waiting at the door when I got home from work at 7:30. I feel like I'm having to relearn everything. I hope and pray that my higher power has plans for the next 40 years being the best 40 years. I'm going to work to ensure that this is the case. But tonight, I go to bed a little confused, sad and lonely.
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Happy Birthday, 40's is a wonderful decade and I am sure you will find many blessings and joy in the year ahead.
What could be nicer than your little granddaughter and a card. Money can't buy that kind of love.
What could be nicer than your little granddaughter and a card. Money can't buy that kind of love.
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Originally Posted by Ann 
What could be nicer than your little granddaughter and a card. Money can't buy that kind of love.
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I think in the first 6 months or so after breaking up with my ex, my expectations of him were still very high. A month after I left was my bday and I had those ill thoughts that he “should” acknowledge it. Then there was Thanksgiving and Christmas and again those old tapes were playing in my head. Kind of setting myself up for further disappointment from him I guess.
I had to realize and accept that he is an ex and the silence is exactly where he must remain for my benefit and future happiness.
I had to stop telling myself that I was missing something in life and begin telling myself I had everything I needed right now here today. No future tripping and no getting lost in the past.
The more I focus on today – right now the more I enjoy each day!!
Happy Birthday!! What a wonderful bday gift you got from your 7 year old – cherish her every minute of every day.
I had to realize and accept that he is an ex and the silence is exactly where he must remain for my benefit and future happiness.
I had to stop telling myself that I was missing something in life and begin telling myself I had everything I needed right now here today. No future tripping and no getting lost in the past.
The more I focus on today – right now the more I enjoy each day!!
Happy Birthday!! What a wonderful bday gift you got from your 7 year old – cherish her every minute of every day.
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Coming in late, but Happy Birthday!!!!! What a sweetie your little is! I bet you were both excited about that!
I turn 40 in a couple of months. I am actually looking forward to it as I feel I have had a lot happen this year, but I have grown as a person in a big way.
Age is but a number, life is what you make of it!
I turn 40 in a couple of months. I am actually looking forward to it as I feel I have had a lot happen this year, but I have grown as a person in a big way.
Age is but a number, life is what you make of it!
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Happy Birthday! What a sweet daughter!
Eventually, with time, the pain will subside.
The 40's have been wonderful for my personal growth. My kids were using drugs, I married my spouse that relapsed but I have grown a lot! I can handle just about any sh*t that is thrown at me!
Eventually, with time, the pain will subside.
The 40's have been wonderful for my personal growth. My kids were using drugs, I married my spouse that relapsed but I have grown a lot! I can handle just about any sh*t that is thrown at me!
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