Vale

Now go and beat the hell out of that thing.

Sometimes males see things a little differently from the fair sex.
Ladies, it seems to me, tend to see things through a "Lifetime" (TV)
lens. Everything is wrapped up/ defined by "the relationship".

Guys see it different. Fella, you broke a deal. A deal you made
to watch this lady's back---and in turn she would watch yours. It's
not a sum of 2, but 2 squared (4) in terms of mutual benefit.

Now you're a deal breaker. People may laugh at your jokes, gals
may love to spend your money----but the one thing no one will
ever do again (except at their peril) is TRUST you.

Those is active addiction don't seem to realize they have lost the
most valuable thing they have ever possessed.

So GET angry, LMN. You were F-ed over. Going all 'new age' and
pretending you can hide from the full blast spectrum of human emotion is
what cowards do. Others use psychotropic chemicals to hide.

Funny culture going on today. No one seems to 'admire' those who
cannot control their caloric balance-----but everyone seems to be entranced
by those who cannot control their libidos and end up f-ing over those who
have trusted them the most.

Get mad. Beat the doll (or the duck!). But anger burns out.

......leaving only pity for those who, at the moment of truth in life,
lowered their eyes and assumed subordinated positions.

Angel1234

You all are awesome and yes, the analogies are perfect.

I understand your anger and your resentment. It's been three months of no contact for me and a PPO that will save me from hearing from my ex for another 9 months. At first I felt the same things you did. On the surface my ex got a brand new cadillac and pretended his life was awesome. I had so much hate and anger inside me that it was only hurting me. I remember wanting so bad to pick up the phone and call the prosecuting attorney on his case for his recent arrest and telling him everything. I wanted to have him in jail. I never did it. I never did anything vengeful. It was so hard. All I kept telling myself is that if I did that then I would be no better than the spiteful addict that i hated so much. I'm so glad I never did it because I would feel horrible about it.

I spent some time with a few good friends last night. One of them told me he is still hanging out with the drug crowd and one of his dealers. His cadillac and condo and all the nice things he has are all just material posessions. Underneath is a very sad, self loathing individual. That is worse than jail. He hates himself and he masks his pain with drugs. I've let go of alot of my anger but not all. You will get there too. It takes time. Alot of time.

Thanks for the analogies Vale. I needed to read those today.