The Battle is Over
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The Battle is Over
Dearest recovery friends,
I have been AWL for several months now, and many of you won't even remember me, but I have to let those who have supported me, know that my son gave up the fight on Thursday, August 15.
He was spotted by a boater floating in the lake where he lived in his camper. It was ruled drowning, but I know his heart gave way to the numerous problems with aortic valve and enlargement. His health continued to decline with repeated infections, hospital stays, and ER visits. He was so very tired and wanted to leave this life long ago.
As his mom, I wanted him to stay, be healthy and happy. It wasn't in the plans. I had finally accepted that the situation was never going to improve, but with that acceptance came a feeling of defeat. I don't quit. I don't give up. So defeat is a hard pill to swallow.
Unless we made a trip to the ER about two hours away, he was always brushed off as an addict seeking drugs. I have some hard feelings toward a few doctors at other locations near-by. My son was a person. He was a child of God. He was sick. He had multiple health issues other than his addiction. Knowing his short life span, I was no longer so concerned about the addiction. I just wanted help for him to be able to get out of bed and enjoy days here and there. The ultimate root cause of most all the health issues were a result of a life of addiction, but nonetheless, he's still my son, and I still loved him.
Of course, as his mom, I have been concerned about the state of his spiritual life. We had a private immediate family ceremony today, and my nephew wrote the most beautiful poem/song about the idea of Heaven from my son's perspective. I may post it one day.
I hurt so badly for my son, but if he is at peace and no longer in pain or the bonds of addiction, then I rejoice for him and with him.
I pray God protects the addicts and families of addicts who are hurting and in need....and that is every one. With a mom's hurting heart, Washbe
I have been AWL for several months now, and many of you won't even remember me, but I have to let those who have supported me, know that my son gave up the fight on Thursday, August 15.
He was spotted by a boater floating in the lake where he lived in his camper. It was ruled drowning, but I know his heart gave way to the numerous problems with aortic valve and enlargement. His health continued to decline with repeated infections, hospital stays, and ER visits. He was so very tired and wanted to leave this life long ago.
As his mom, I wanted him to stay, be healthy and happy. It wasn't in the plans. I had finally accepted that the situation was never going to improve, but with that acceptance came a feeling of defeat. I don't quit. I don't give up. So defeat is a hard pill to swallow.
Unless we made a trip to the ER about two hours away, he was always brushed off as an addict seeking drugs. I have some hard feelings toward a few doctors at other locations near-by. My son was a person. He was a child of God. He was sick. He had multiple health issues other than his addiction. Knowing his short life span, I was no longer so concerned about the addiction. I just wanted help for him to be able to get out of bed and enjoy days here and there. The ultimate root cause of most all the health issues were a result of a life of addiction, but nonetheless, he's still my son, and I still loved him.
Of course, as his mom, I have been concerned about the state of his spiritual life. We had a private immediate family ceremony today, and my nephew wrote the most beautiful poem/song about the idea of Heaven from my son's perspective. I may post it one day.
I hurt so badly for my son, but if he is at peace and no longer in pain or the bonds of addiction, then I rejoice for him and with him.
I pray God protects the addicts and families of addicts who are hurting and in need....and that is every one. With a mom's hurting heart, Washbe
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I also remember you. I am so sorry for the loss of your son. Yes, he was a child of God and so much more than just an addict. It's also right that he is no longer suffering. I don't know if that gives you much comfort right now, but please know that my thoughts are with you. ((((HUGS))))
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I hurt so badly for my son, but if he is at peace and no longer in pain or the bonds of addiction, then I rejoice for him and with him.
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I am so sorry for your loss!!
My prayers for his swift ascension to the place where he is free and healthy, and for you the peace and serenity of knowing he is safe now.
God it hurts to lose a child. My heart goes out to you!!!
My prayers for his swift ascension to the place where he is free and healthy, and for you the peace and serenity of knowing he is safe now.
God it hurts to lose a child. My heart goes out to you!!!
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Dear Washbe,
I'm so so very sorry, for your terrible loss. My heart goes out to you. Your precious son is free from pain, yes, and in God's arms. He was your son, a precious child of God, who had illnesses. I cannot imagine your pain, and I pray for you, and all who love your beautiful son.
I'm so so very sorry, for your terrible loss. My heart goes out to you. Your precious son is free from pain, yes, and in God's arms. He was your son, a precious child of God, who had illnesses. I cannot imagine your pain, and I pray for you, and all who love your beautiful son.
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Washbe, I am sending up prayers for you to be comforted. I'm so sad that your son had to leave - but as you said, it's the end of his pain and suffering. He's in God's hands - no more earthly cares.
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