crazybabie

I am feeling really good and peaceful which has me kinda shocked considering the recent events in my life my husband was off work last week for the 4th where he works that week they always close for a week we had numerous small plans for things we, were going to be doing and his birthday was on the 2nd,

I had a doctor appointment on his BD and wanted to wait until the next day so we could get an early start for the beach he left the house and at 8:00 am and came home at around 5:00 pm gave some song and dance as where he had been then took is shower after the shower a short time later he was hurting this crazy man had sit in the sun for hours no sunscreen and the inside of his legs were burnt so basically he was so burnt his ankles were so swollen that the little bone on the side could not even be seen. I was a good little codie wife and waited on him hand and foot finally got him to go to the hospital on saturday this happened Tuesday,

Then comes Sunday, what a beautiful and cray day Sunday was the first day we had not had any rain, in a week the sky was so pretty some concerns came up about our daughter I was getting ready to go to her house and call the police and do a safety check I was making a few last calls to be sure I had covered all her friends well I guess I was too slow to suit him because he walked out the door saying nothing keep in mind I was going not us but oh am I ever so thankful it worked out the way it did,

Amber, only lives about a mile from me so I finished my last call and drove on over her dad's truck was in the middle of the road and some guy was outside
the passenger side with his head partly in the window I could tell hubby was trying too leave he was tying to let the truck roll slowly I was thinking wth...

I got out of my car and walked toward the truck he I yelled at him to wait a minute as he at that point was pulling off he did but seemed irritated I asked if she was in the house he said she didn't come to the door and he drove off. Again I am thinking wth...

So , I asked the guy had he seen anyone there and he said yes but could not describe them I said if that guy you was talking to is a friend of yours could you think a little harder it is his well our daughter and I am getting ready to call the police for a safety check his response quite surprised me he said I have a beef with that guy I was like Oh..

then my daughter drove up the guy asked me would I come to the side of the street he was on so I did he said the guy your talking about had been F....... my ole lady for a year I was like ummmm Really???

Turns out she is the girl someone told me about a year ago but when I called the number then they said wrong number to make a long story short her husband told me the number I told him I had called a year ago no use in calling he said she was mad at my hubby and would talk now he that she is like that so I called and told her who I was and that I just wanted to say thank you for doing me a favor she wanted to talk in person I really don't know why I agreed but I did.

She came to my dad's bar and we sat out on the patio and talked for 4 hours yep 4 it was so funny so far I am doing good I know that can change any time but am grateful for what is now of course he is textin me like crazy and I am ignoring all text

I now know what everyone means by when the pain of staying is more then the pain of leaving I was a stubborn one who kept praying to see Gods will and asking his will be done I must have not been seeing it because I feel like God finally said ok let me just drop it on your head girl wake up lol

Hope all have a great day...

Kindeyes

Oh Angie.......I'm so sorry. Sometimes I really need God to hit me upside the head.....I don't get it any other way......but sometimes it hurts.

You'll be in my prayers today.

gentle hugs
ke

crazybabie

KE, I think each time I let him come back I was taking that as a sign that I was suppose to keep working on the marriage since I had been praying for what to do and the wisdom... I suppose that is what I wanted to see he sent me a text this morning asking what lies have you been told... I really found that funny

The girl is a year older than our oldest son I felt awful at first that bothered me she told me she was an "escort" and even asked if I wanted to work with her it got insane she must have been stoned idk.

At first my codie kicked in and I was chasing him in the car he was running stop signs and red lights and so was I then it hit me Angie wth??? what else is there to say and what are you doing just insane. Reminded me of how I use to act when our oldest son called needing "help"

I have been taking mom and her husband places all week so I have been insanely busy which I suppose is a good thing and I have my CT scans at the Cancer Center today once all this winds down I assume at some point I will feel something as usual time will reveal.

I do plan on a meeting tonight as I have not been sleeping or eating and I told my mom and step-dad last night that after we do what is planned on Saturday I am taking at least 3-4 days for me and if that is a problem for them I will bring them their car.

My dad is trying to get me to tell our kids stuff I know about their dad I just don't get why like I told him they don't need to know everything grown or not I plan to hold my head high because I am the one who has to live with me when all is said and done and any decisions I make

Kindeyes

Angie
Take care of you......you can't go wrong making good decisions for yourself.
gentle hugs
ke

tjp613

Been there done that, too, Angie. I kinda know how you might be feeling. Part rage, part relief, part idiot. Well, like you said, God did you a big fat favor hitting you over the head with that 2x4 and now you can't sit under the shady tree of denial any more. And you KNOW that's good.

I'm a little concerned that you're not eating, honey. Especially now, please try to make an effort to take better care of yourself. Y'know...for years people kept telling me to try melatonin for better sleep and I never listened...until recently! I'm a big-time believer now and never go to bed without it! Have you ever tried that?

(((hugs))) Take good care, ok?

LoveMeNow

(((Angie)))

I am so sorry. I am really at a loss for words except to say YOU deserve so much better. Keep taking care of you because YOU are worth it.

My prayers, thoughts and love are with you today and always.

Ilovemysonjj

Dear Angie, just wanted to send you a hug. This must have been difficult, but I agree that you are in a better place now knowing the truth. We are all here for you. I am praying that you find peace and rest and regain your strength. Hugs
TT

interrupted

Oh, Crazybear, I'm sorry to hear about this development, but perhaps it's one of those oddly-wrapped packages, no?

Maybe it's time for Mr. Babie (wow, that one sure works, doesn't it?) to take care of himself for a while.

Listen to LMN, make sure to take care of yourself through all this! Eat! Relax! The errands will get done, they don't all have to be done right this minute, you are a priority here.

crazybabie

Thanks dear friends, I have not tried that for sleep I do take clonodine which helps with sleep I may be wrong but I think the Bipolar is in a high cycle with all that is going on any mental illness you MUST take care of yourself you can't just take the meds for it only...

I stopped trying to figure it out 2 hours a night is working for now

lol @ Mr. Babie yes that sure fits

LMN, I know your right I do deserve so much better we all deserve good I knew this but denied it to myself for over a year now.

TT, thanks I needed the hug and can always use the prayers thanks