Katiekate

Vale

Like Ann said (and a CPA should know!); if you are
looking to "stand out in a crowd" because of a BK in this
period of history.....

........sorry to disappoint you------but you're going to have to
to ALOT better than that!

Life is growing and changing and learning. My Dad walked in
on me one day crying over my beloved dead guinea pig (Bonzo).
I tried to hide, turn away. But he told me "Don't be ashamed of
your tears.That is not weakness.That is strength".

Be strong. LMN. This will pass.

(all these smilies twirling in circles----don't they ever get dizzy?)
-they do.....but if you observe closely, they hold each other up.

Ilovemysonjj

LMN, I also want to commend you on the ongoing commitment you have displayed to us all in working on YOU. I so understand how horrible this feels when the addiction wins again. It is a tightrope during early recovery. I say pick yourself up, dust off and move on. God IS working in this and all you can do is give up your husband to Him and seek your peace. sending my hugs and prayers your way.
Teresa

allthatsgood

LMN, you are in my thoughts and prayers tonight! I second what Teresa said, you have been an inspiration to all of us here on SR.

Anaya

LMN: Thinking of you and keeping you and your husband in my prayers. Hugs.

bluebelle

LMN, I'm sorry to hear of your sadness. I know what it's like to feel alone and defeated. One thing about that period in my life, is that I really discovered some wonderful people who helped me. It's amazing how some people will run from you in your time of need. But there are others, who show kindness in the simplest actions. I hope you are able to experience some of this. For me, some of it was just accepting help from others, and being open to it. I'm sending prayers and hugs your way.

LoveMeNow

Thank you all for your kind words and support. Also, thank you to the ones who reached out to me privately. You have no idea how much you helped me today. I am forever grateful to you all and to SR.

BB89

LMN, I am so sorry you are going through this. You are in my thoughts.

story74

LMN, your posts in here are truly amazing. From your posts I gather you are a VERY smart woman and VERY giving. From your posts you seem to try so super hard. All I can say is don't be too hard on yourself. Denial is powerful. I was in denial that marriage wasn't working. I thought we were just in a slump. It happens. Now, you have a choice. Follow your instinct. Don't follow fear. Whatever you choose, you can do.

mstrust

so sorry to read this, LMN. hang in there. you're strong. your words have helped me a lot.