feelings
 

I feel sad. I feel guilty because I don't really have any reason to be if I compare myself to others on this forum. I can't talk F2F with my friends cuz they just don't like hearing it. some friends huh? Im not sure why I feel this way. I made a gratitude list a mile long and still, its like a hollow apathy in my gut where I wish I could lay in bed and stare at the wall. I just don't understand why it feels like going through the motions. I did have moments of joy today, maybe its just a craving for weed, Im not sure. I went through a whole pack of smokes today. I have no reason to have this negativity.... I've been saying over and over and over "this is the day the lord has made. I will rejoice and be glad in it" and still.... I just feel hollow.... thanks for letting me share :l

Lily- I know how you feel when you say you are sad. I had a sad day myself and I have no clue what brought it on. Nothing in particular happened- think I just let my mind wander too much and did not keep busy after I left work. Hang in there- tomorrow is a new day.

Most of us have blue days.....I hope you find something to smile about tomorrow.

gentle hugs
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"I did have moments of joy today, maybe it's just a craving for weed"

You do drugs too?

I have learned to take each day as it comes however do not be too hard with yourself. Also avoid comparing yourself with others.

I was a stoner from the age of 12 - 18. I quit when I got pregnant with my first child. I have eaten mushrooms twice and dropped LSD once. Psychedelics scared the crap out of me. I relapsed on weed 9 months ago last Tuesday. before that I was 6 years clean.