Nothing has changed, did it again, what can my next step be? Walked into my shed, He was shooting up, another girl from down the road was shooting up my room mate, and a little Boy sat outside on a four wheeler! OMG! I went off, I said "If you want to do that s**t go down and do it at your own God D**n house not mine. He said she is my friend.Blah, Blah, blah (The same friend who was down here last night Boo Wooing about DCF coming around) I said I don't care take it down to her house then! when will this insanity stop? he left with them, I'm back feeling like a prisoner in my Bedroom. And Today is my Birthday! HA Ha Happy "F*****g Birthday. I am sooo Mad. Then his son comes home from school, so maybe there won't be an argument Today...God Grant Me the Serenity to not do something stupid! I Hate this!!! I truly hate my LIFE! I don't want to ask my children for help, been there done that, I don't have the guts to ask them again. if I had the money I would Leave TODAY, to go live with my daughter in Alaska! That should be far enough away from him. And right now I truly Hate him, I never thought I could say that. I feel as if I'm blubbering. If I couldn't come here I don't know what I would do. Our lights will be turned off today if he doesn't go pay it TODAY! Next it will be our cable and internet! Thanks for Listening to a 55 year old FOOL! |
Awww honey, you are not a fool. You are dealing with addiction, a horrible, horrible disease. YOu did not cause it, you can not control it, and you can not cure it. The only thing you can change is you, your life, and your path. YOu do not deserve this, and it will eat you alive. How can we help? Maybe sometime away would be good, if you can manage that in anyway possible. No , you are not a fool, you are human, you have feelings, and they are valuable. Please keep posting. We are here. Love to you Katie |
Happy Birthday littleredhead. You are not a fool, we are not fools they are for hurting us like this, because the day will come when they wish they had not. |
Happy Birthday! I am so sorry for your pain. I am sure your daughter would love to see you free of him, maybe you could borrow some money for a oneway ticket to Alaska. Once settled, you could repay her. Sounds like a great bday present to yourself. |
Ask your children to pay for a one way ticket to Alaska, leave and don't go back. Make up your mind and stick to your decision, this is all about you, not him. Nothing changes, if nothing changes. You deserve better, it is up to you to make a better life for yourself. |
Happy Birthday! You asked what your next step should be...you've gotten great answers! Find a way to get a one-way ticket to Alaska!!! Then go No Contact with him!! Just imagine how much better your next birthday could be!! |
Alaska, Sister--Alaska!! Go! Make it a memorable birthday! :bday7 |
Yepppers, Happy Birthday to you honey, Alaska and don't look back. Hey, at 55 we don't have any darn time left to waste on the stupid things! Enjoy the rest of your life, no idiots allowed! I say all this with love, it is true for myself as well...... :You_Rock_:bday7:day2:day:day5 |
Happy birthday. I wish you the strength to take back control of your own life. |
Thanks to all you guys for your responses, My oldest daughter called and I will be staying with her (she lives here) until I decided my next step. I sent an email to all 3 of my children. And yes next year will be different!! |
"And yes next year will be different!! " That's it! Make your next B-day a rebirth day! |
Originally Posted by littleredhead52
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Thanks to all you guys for your responses, My oldest daughter called and I will be staying with her (she lives here) until I decided my next step. I sent an email to all 3 of my children. And yes next year will be different!! Glad you are in motion, please keep us posted. We care! |
you don't have to go all the way to Alaska to free yourself from the madness the new frontier is within you! ;) and tomorrow is the first day of your new year stay present, stay within the moment, start living you will have all the support you need going forward your future is spotless! |
Originally Posted by Katiekate
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Awww honey, you are not a fool. You are dealing with addiction, a horrible, horrible disease. YOu did not cause it, you can not control it, and you can not cure it. The only thing you can change is you, your life, and your path. YOu do not deserve this, and it will eat you alive. How can we help? Maybe sometime away would be good, if you can manage that in anyway possible. No , you are not a fool, you are human, you have feelings, and they are valuable. Please keep posting. We are here. Love to you Katie (Thanks,Katiekate) AND HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!:bday7 |
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