| sadmabel | 06-18-2012 08:23 PM |
What a difference a day makes
I think I may sleep some tonight. My son has not been high today. Nothing wonderful happened in my life today, I didn't have a great day at work, didn't do anything fun but it is amazing to me how one day of looking into my sons eyes and seeing he hasn't used can change my whole attitude. What would a week feel like? Or a year? Oh how I wish I will know someday. My son called to set up his IOP today. This was the first time he did anything like that himself. But I can't just blame him for that. I took it upon my self to research, call, etc. Today, I gave him the insurance card and pointed him towards the computer and he called. Maybe he is just trying to pull the wool over my eyes, Maybe he has no intent on quiting, Maybe this is a game to him. But maybe, just maybe, he will learn something he didn't expect to, maybe he will feel a freedom like I have being able to talk to you all, maybe he will come home and tell me something he has learned. Maybe he will see someone he is afraid to be, maybe he will learn who he could be. Maybe he'll leave there and use. Maybe it will feel different than it did before he went..... | 