A Boring Life

Old 06-12-2012, 09:37 PM
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A Boring Life

It has been some time since I've done a post. There's a couple of reasons for that. One is I'm very busy these days, and my life is "boring" in that I don't have any drama to deal with anymore.

But the other reason is there are things that I have simply been unable to share. Without going too far down this road, I can't talk about what I do for work. And given what I do for work, I had to report all the events in my life regarding my AXGF. It was the right thing to do. And as of late last week, the investigation into those events was closed. There was a big, big sense of relief last Friday when I received the email telling me that.

Me being me, I had to "postgame" all the events that led up to that point. I really, truly, and firmly belief it was my AXGF's intention to try to take me down. Because that's what sick people do. That's what people with Borderline Personality Disorder and/or addiction issues do when they're not in recovery. Fortunately, she failed miserably. I wasn't going to let her take me down. Sure, she knocked me on my bum, but I got up pretty quick. I'm now five months clear of her, and I'm pretty certain I'll never hear from her again. Thank God.

Back in January, I did a post regarding a stunt she pulled: showing up at my house when I wasn't here and giving back two presents I had given her: a ring for her birthday and a CD of my band's music. It was pretty cruel. And someone on the board said that by reacting to this provocation, I'd be giving her what she wanted. I forget who that person is, but whoever you are, thank you for saying that for I needed to hear it.

I still come on the board every day, trying to do my own version of the 12th step by sharing a story or offering encouragement to those who need it. I hope what I've shared with you has been in some way helpful, for what you've shared with me has certainly impacted me for the better.

God Bless You All. And good night...

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Old 06-13-2012, 01:02 AM
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Zoso, I for one can say your ESH have helped mei n ways you will never know.
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I also like your posts and have watched you as you've grappled with the painful breakup. You have shared your growth and your pain....and it's good 12th step stuff. I hope you'll continue to share as your perspective is helpful.
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