PrayingMama

The song ripped my heart out, too. So I cried.

I read once in Clarissa Pinkola Estes' book, "Women Who Run With the Wolves," that honest tears shed in love, in joy or in sorrow, are like holy water, full of cleansing, healing power, and they provide protection against dark, destructive forces. I have never forgotten that, and it has brought me some comfort and consolation above and beyond the actual physical and emotional release of weeping.

"The terrible wait." Perfectly describes it.

Praying God will grant us all strength and peace.

PrayingMama

Dear TT, when I read the line about "stepping away from the crack pipe in my head" I almost laughed out loud. Nothing--and I mean nothing--in the past few days has "cracked" me up the way that did. (And, boy, could I use a laugh.)

I hope you are not offended. I just wanted to say thanks for that image. Somehow it just works for me. I will be using that to help myself from now on.

Ilovemysonjj

Praying Mama, that is a phrase I use a lot in jest with my brother and I also find humor but also it really fits my behavior. It is a craving to obsess and worry and covet the memory of JJ. I really need to STEP AWAY