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im in the nascent stages of the real work here. i've been going to meetings, got some numbers from old timers and have picked up the phone to call. maybe soon i'll be able to get a sponsor. i know what i have to do, but its practice, not perfection.
as for her, miraculously she went right back in to her program after 3 days and is very happy to be there. perhaps the relapse served as a lesson.
i found that my emotional grip is still too tight, so i decided to try to let go. i cannot control what will happen in the next month, year, whatever. i know her and i both have been riddled with stuff for most of our lives. all i can do is let her do her recovery and me do mine. i know she still has the attention issues and was just starting on that in therapy before she left. i do not really want to jsut be hanging on as she dates or anything. as much as i know that my entire life has been a yearning for a deep meaningful best friend love thing, i do not feel that i am in a place to meet any one. so i will trudge through this adn let the recovery happen for me as slow as it will likely be.
as for her, miraculously she went right back in to her program after 3 days and is very happy to be there. perhaps the relapse served as a lesson.
i found that my emotional grip is still too tight, so i decided to try to let go. i cannot control what will happen in the next month, year, whatever. i know her and i both have been riddled with stuff for most of our lives. all i can do is let her do her recovery and me do mine. i know she still has the attention issues and was just starting on that in therapy before she left. i do not really want to jsut be hanging on as she dates or anything. as much as i know that my entire life has been a yearning for a deep meaningful best friend love thing, i do not feel that i am in a place to meet any one. so i will trudge through this adn let the recovery happen for me as slow as it will likely be.
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Originally Posted by steve1840 
i found that my emotional grip is still too tight, so i decided to try to let go.
"Do or do not. There is no try." ~ Yoda
Whether slowly or abruptly, you'll get better results when you actually commit. 'Trying' is an experiment.
Glad to see you moving forward, glad to know she went back
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you were saying how much you two were talking and saying loving things to each other, giving you the notion that there is possible a future.
what happened? did you find out she dating other guys, girls and you feel let down?
what happened? did you find out she dating other guys, girls and you feel let down?
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