melon1989

My husband tried to attack me for weed. I gave up with all my heart and let the police take him away. The 11th hour is when everyone thinks nothing will happen, when everything seems stuck and dead and then somehow miracles happen. The last man standing somehow decides in that 11th hour that he wants to be free, he wants to walk with Jesus. I say that not with hope but because I believe that is what is happening to my husband. He stands alone in his addiction and the only one who can change his mind now is him.

I believe in the happening of the 11th hour. I believe because his father contacted me out of the blue and started to cry, finally admitting he loved his son no matter what. That he believed me when I said Cody can still change and cried harder. People who turned against Cody are now popping up, pulling for him. I hope this is real and that my husband can feel it.

melon1989

They called him stupid, belittled him, thought if he just bucked up and was a man, he would be fine. No one took his addiction seriously, now they do.

YearForMe

Please don't let that Melon head of yours get too ripe and soft.

Once people see the seriousness of the situation....they come flooding in with words of support. Words that soften your heart. He sees that he has a whole new line of enablers....but, he has to pay the price of admission.......and that is to say things to give everyone HOPE.

Stay in the distance. Love from a distance.

melon1989

it's your eleventh hour
the ticking of the clock puts pressure on your heart
When will you open your doors, love?
When will you let God in?
it's your eleventh hour
all you see is darkness
all you want is to be hidden from sight
but we all see you and we love you regardless
it's your eleventh hour
We sing outside the cage you have locked yourself in
our song wraps around your hurting heart
it's your eleventh hour
we walk to the water and lay wreaths down
you will remember who you are
it's your eleventh hour
you always think it is you against the world
but the world is changing
it does not see you as seperate
it does not want you against it
it's your eleventh hour
we read psalms in the halls of your jail
you always think they are never for you
when all our love is dedicated to you finding your way
it's your eleventh hour
Jesus is holding up the sun
he will NOT LET this day close
until you have arrived
until you have surrendered
until you believe that you are loved
it's your eleventh hour
the clock ticking has no bearing on our faith in you
we will all carry on with you in our hearts until you are free

lesliej

on a note of open heartedness...please know that for many people in recovery Jesus is not the answer. it is important for people in recovery to develop their own relationship with their connection to a higher power. I just mean to say that your 11th hour man may, just may, eventually, maybe, find spiritual connection where you would least expect it. sometimes someone else's pre-defined picture of salvation or "who god is" actually drives people away
peace & love from a non-Christian

oneday66

Im totally confused... is the 11th hour hitting rock bottom? The addict hits bottom,not his dad.

cc88

Agreed with lesliej.

peace & love from a fellow christian

dollydo

You are very good at the written word, however, you can't seem to translate them to everyday living, basic reality issues seem to escape your mindset.

You married him to "save" him. You wrote a letter pleading the court to overlook his robbing at gun point. Your letter worked, he got out, he continued to use, you were done.
That didn't last long.

Now, you are back with him, he attacks you for weed, I must admit, never heard that one B/4. Crack, meth, pills...weed? Does not compute, now if you said money to buy drugs, that I would understand.

I hope that you find recovery for yourself, if not, all the words in the world will not change your life, actions are the answer.

Justfor1

Weed can make some addicts just as violent and crazy as the other "hard drugs". It is also just as a serious of an addiction as any other substance. Just because it is being used medicinally doesn't make it safe. In fact, the cost of weed has been increasing so people will probably start seeing the robbing, assualt ect... for the drug.