Farfalla

My husband seeks suboxone off the streets of Camden NJ when he runs out of his percocets. I am waiting for the phone call they found him dead being Camden is in the top ten most dangerous cities in the US. Suboxone is just a substitute. My husband also abused and I believe abuses still cocaine. Using suboxone for coke is crap. Suboxone is an opiate blocker. Cocaine produces a completely different affect than suboxone. I was not and will never be able to trust my husband. Too many lies have been told. It is normal to keep looking. I do that. I believe I only do it though to reaffirm the decision I made to detach from him.

addictionwife

To a FamilyDestroyed- I had tears in my eyes reading your daughters words. How proud you must be of her, and how affirming that you are doing the right thing by her. Good for you!! My husband started out using oxy, norco, whatever he could. I'm finding out just in the last few days how little I actually know my husband at all. He has had this addiction for pain killers far longer than the 4 years since he hurt his back, in fact, I'm now questioning if there ever was a back injury back then, lol. In short, this started long before I even met him and we have been married for 4 years. He started the suboxeone 2 years ago after I realized what a huge problem he had. It shames me actually that I never realized there was a problem at all with it until financial issues came into play. He was laid off his job along with half of America, and we lost our health coverage. For the first time he was forced to buy them off the street for far more than a $5 co-pay for a months prescription and I noticed it. That's when he started lying and doing it behind my back. My problem with the money has been that he is in construction, now working as an independent contracter since he lost his union job, so he has the ability to hide how much he is making from me. This past January I began to notice things were off again. I never imagined cocaine was involved as well. I found that out as a result of looking for proof that he was buying pills again. He has been using both, probably all along. So he is back on the suboxeon for the pills, and who knows what he's doing with the coke. He says that he is not using anything except the suboxeon, that he will not lose his family over this. I guess time will tell, right? While I'm so hopeful that he can get better, I'm not going to be blind to it anymore. I hope that me doing this is the bottom he needed to wake up and see what he has become. I know the kids mean everything to him so like I said, time will tell. Thank you so much for sharing with me. It means a lot.

Farfalla

More in common than you think...
My husband union pipefitter.
He was also prescribed pain pill for back injury ten years ago.
The powder very common for union pipefitteers to start once they finish their apprenticeship and start making good money.