Freedom1990

This is so important to remember. When I was actively using, I would do/say anything to protect my addiction.

After I got clean/sober, I still lied because it had become a way of life for me. It took working those 12 steps over and over to finally understand honesty and how important that was in recovery.

Tyler312

Funny how I just now read the last few comments... 24 hours after I lost it.

Long story short, I decided to sleep at home last night. But when faced with what I was convinced was dishonesty, I just lost it in a non-productive way. I was right, but it doesn't really matter. I still lost it and proved nothing.

So now here I am sleeping at work again

Its so hard to figure things out... while I was packing today I kept hearing "don't leave".

For now I am back to waiting. For what, I don't know. But I know her pleading "please don't go" is not it. Her apologizing--but not admitting any truths--is not it.

I guess the important thing is to not give in and be manipulated.

Freedom1990

Yes it is important. Sorry for the blow up, but you took action afterwards and that's all that matters.

Sending you hugs of support, Tyler.