Originally Posted by December2011

I have been doing every possible thing for a few years now, to no avail.

What's that they say about doing the same thing over and over and expecting a different outcome?

I think I have not let go yet. There is the driving motherly force that thinks I can save him, I can fix this, there has to be a way to control this. I have even thought that if I stop eating and tell, him I will not eat again until he goes into treatment, that will do it. I know I am starting to sound very crazy.

At one of my worst points I seriously considered using heroin to somehow compel my daughter to stop. Talk about crazy. I avoid all drugs including prescription meds so this was rather profound and nuts.


I guess I do not yeat belive I can't fix this. I somehow think I am going to be the one to beat ther ods, or spen my life taking care of him.
I am struggling with this a lot.

I strongly resembled this. Gotta tell ya, when it hit me that I had made this all about me and my ego, it brought me to my knees with humility. Accepting that we are powerless of this is a process and like an addict, we have to reach our bottom where it becomes a them or us situation.

I did decide to go to Naranon, and am going to go next Thursday.