codepency shows her a## again!
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codepency shows her a## again!
So I'm having one of those days where I'm asking myself "do I really want to do this?" I don't WANT to leave my home, I don't WANT to be in an apartment with no yard for my children, I don't WANT to move away from my parents who live ACROSS THE STREET!
I LOVE MY HOME!
I was giving myself multiple reasons to stay with my AH (oxy's) so it's easier for the family...."maybe he'll actually stay clean this time"...blah blah blah.
I live in my happy little bubble...my daughter's school is 1 mile away, my job is 5 miles from home, and my parents are oh so conveniently just across the street.
I HATE HIM FOR TAKING ALL OF THIS AWAY FROM US!!! I HATE HIME FOR FORCING ME TO MOVE MY KIDS AWAY SO THEY CAN HATE ME!!!
I don't even know what to say to my children when I leave in 3 weeks!
I loathe this internal struggle between hating him and wanting to save him.
I'm now headed in to the woods to scream curse words for 15 minutes.
I LOVE MY HOME!
I was giving myself multiple reasons to stay with my AH (oxy's) so it's easier for the family...."maybe he'll actually stay clean this time"...blah blah blah.
I live in my happy little bubble...my daughter's school is 1 mile away, my job is 5 miles from home, and my parents are oh so conveniently just across the street.
I HATE HIM FOR TAKING ALL OF THIS AWAY FROM US!!! I HATE HIME FOR FORCING ME TO MOVE MY KIDS AWAY SO THEY CAN HATE ME!!!
I don't even know what to say to my children when I leave in 3 weeks!
I loathe this internal struggle between hating him and wanting to save him.
I'm now headed in to the woods to scream curse words for 15 minutes.
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