Welcome to SR.....I always say this but I mean it truly.....I am so sorry for the reasons that bring you here.
Does it get easier? I wouldn't say it gets "easier" but it can become manageable. My son is the A in my life. I have accepted that I cannot control him or his addiction. I have accepted that I can only control myself and I can control my feelings and thoughts. My life is not perfect but it is no longer unmanageable.
Through this process of my own recovery (codependent) I have made a lot of self discovery that I would not have made if my son was not an addict. I would never have met some of the wonderful people I have met. I strive daily to be a better person and I don't allow my son's addiction to rule my life (I use to though).
These things (for me) could not have been accomplished without a 12 step program and a lot of study, reading, and self examination. Focusing on myself rather than focusing on my addicted/alcoholic son.
You've come to a great place. A place with wonderful people who have all walked the path of loving or living with an addict/alcoholic. There is great solice in knowing that you are not alone. Stick around, share your story, and reach out for help.....we are very big on self care here.
I read something the other day that I loved -- "Life is not about weathering the storm, it is about learning to dance in the rain."
Congratulations on nursing school! That is a huge accomplishment!
Gratitude unlocks the fullness of life. It turns what we have into enough, and more. It turns denial into acceptance, chaos to order, confusion to clarity. It can turn a meal into a feast, a house into a home, a stranger into a friend. -Melody Beattie