It's Friday
 

Well, it's Friday, my kids have gone to their dad's for the weekend and here I sit alone. Not a good thing...... My mind can't stop spinning with thoughts about what his drug use has done to him, to us to his kids, to my kids....on and on. I decided I need to get out of the house and go hang out with some friends tonight. I will go and I will have fun. Hopefully I will get a few hours of him not on my mind. I found out today that he hadn't been talking to his kids this week and that there is a really good chance he lost or is about to lose his job (after 2 weeks). I just can't understand how people can do this to themselves!

Great! Have some fun, you deserve a break from all the stress!

He is an addict doing what addicts do.

Exposing your children to someone in active addiction is negligence. I applaud your boundaries to keep your children safe. Meth addicts often become sloppy with chemicals and spontaneously violent with no provacation.

Take time and grieve the loss of your hopeful fantasy that he was going to be the man you wanted him to be.

He is an addict doing what addicts do.

This too shall pass.

Get out, have fun and enjoy a little bit of a mental vacation.

gentle hugs

I hope you enjoy your time with your friends, hopefully you will get to relax for awhile.

Thank you everyone! The night didn't go quite like I thought. Oh the benefits of living in a small town. Everyone had to give a me an their two cents or tell me they saw him or something. Eventually I came home and went to bed. I am still having a hard time with the fact that all this is happening. I am still holding out hope he will see the "light" but I know I have to work on myself and move on. One day at a time.