Callie

Stumbled upon this on topix...

A lovely site (NOT) that targets every city in the US I think. People can post anonymously about anything or anybody. Just wondering if my xah's name had popped up on there. It hasn't, but I found this...

Heroin my only friend
an addict I haven't always been
I need you more than my life I know
I have the marks on my body to show
The high you give me is so good
Takes my pain away I knew it would
The problems they just disapear
works better than pills, weed or beer
constant fixes I need them now
I must get high please show me how
Black, brown and sticky I mix you well
the syringe I draw after the sell
shoot you in I can not wait
Not tiring of the trouble that you make
tighten up, I need a vein that pops
I hope the feeling never stops
Steal,sell, and buy I care not how
I get you, I want you I need you now.
Addict? Why yes, Yes now I will always be
No matter how hard I try I can not break free
Judge me if you must I don't care
You will never understand the burdens I bear
My excuses mean nothing to you I am trash
our lifestyles are different we will always clash
A need so great there's nothing I will not do
To feel that warmth through and through
You want me to quit...I know I've tried
it lasts a while. Once I almost died.
Sick was I you know to well.
You watched me go through living hell
Stop one day I guess I will have to
for a min, an hour a day or two
One day God will take me home
you won't worry, I won't need it, I will no longer roam
these streets alone looking for my friend
I won't need it then....that's when it ends.

tchappy

All I can say is that is SAD! Brought tears to my eyes.

outtolunch

I used to check all sorts of sources for information about my daughter.

Putting the online ( codependent) researcher ( detective) into retirement took considerable effort on my part.

bigisland

Ahhh, yes. Sounds like a heroin addiction to me. The author says "Once I almost died"... I think my bf has been close way more than once. I don't think they realize how close sometimes. Bless them all.

lunaa

Its really sad,i like it.
Thanks for sharing it.

Callie

Putting the online ( codependent) researcher ( detective) into retirement took considerable effort on my part.

Point taken outto. Thanks for the reminder.

Maggiemac

Callie my son has been in heaven with no pain for almost 2years nexted month. I still miss him so very much don't think it will ever be the same for me with out him. Death was in Gods plan for him. That poem is what it was like for my dear boy a sad tale for someone who was loved so much by so many.
Your friend,
Maggiemac

Callie

That poem is what it was like for my dear boy a sad tale for someone who was loved so much by so many.


Maggie - it grips them so severely and doesn't let go. I'm so sorry for your loss. You are right, he is in no pain right now and he's ALWAYS with you, watching down on you. Hugs to you, my friend.