Im leaving today.
Im leaving today.
I've had it at being a fool, of waiting for the "next thing" to happen to leave. I am not with the person I started the relationship with, none of mine or my childrens emotional needs are being met and i refuse to hide behind our pretty house and keep up his facade. Oh God just give me strength and help me do the right thing. I phoned a womans shelter last night and we are going to stay there until I find a place. It would be impossible for me to move out directly from the house, our arguments are becoming screaming matches. I am angry and hurt, it just clicked in..what am I waiting for? Life is too short. I am feeling really scared, of whats to come. Im scared of his drug use once Im gone..but thats what I have realized that I have NO control over him- I only have control over me. Any positive energy/prayers would be appriciated- Im packing.
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I'm sorry. Genuinely. You are doing the best thing you can do to serve your higher self and protect your children. I hope you are packing "smart". Money. Get money. Gather any valuables and all your personal papers. The shelter should be able to give you a list of suggested items to pack, duplicate, etc. Put password protection on things like power, cell phones, insurance, roadside assistance, cable, etc. I will be thinking of you and praying for your peace of mind and safety!
i also think you are doing the best thing for the both of you and your kids. your breaking point may/maynot also lead him to his breaking point too. my families decision to walk away from me is what drove me to my bottom, which inturn caused me to finally hit my bottom. that bottom caused me to get serious about recovery and remembering that bottom is what helps me to stay clean. today i'm 8yrs sober and totally grateful to my family for the decisions they made back when.....
you and your family are in my prayers.
you and your family are in my prayers.
I agree with all of the responses above me. I am thinking about you and your children and celebrate that you have reached your bottom. I know what I have gone through and wish that my bottom had been reached sooner. You and your children will be okay. There is a lot of support out there to help you as you find your way.
What a tough decision to have to come to, but when enough is enough you know it. You are bravely declaring that living without addiction in your life in the long term is worth the short term discomfort of moving into a shelter and finding a new home.
We truly can endure anything when there is life, love, and liberation on the other side. You can do this!!
Keep in touch, stay safe, and reach out for help and support when you need to...that's what it's there for.
Alice
We truly can endure anything when there is life, love, and liberation on the other side. You can do this!!
Keep in touch, stay safe, and reach out for help and support when you need to...that's what it's there for.
Alice
Leaving is a very dangerous time for women, you are wise to make arrangements ahead of time with the womens' shelter.
Take your valuables and bank checks and cards, and talk to your lawyer to determine your rights.
I will keep you in my prayers.
Hugs
Take your valuables and bank checks and cards, and talk to your lawyer to determine your rights.
I will keep you in my prayers.
Hugs
I made it and we are ok Honestly I cannot believe I did it.. what a day!! As I grabbed the last bag to put into my truck my bestfriend said he was home. He came up the stairs and I said "I'm leaving today" I just went right on and left.
I DID IT!!!!
Thank you everyone who prayed for me today, it means more to me than you would ever know.
I pray for strength and wisdom to make it through the days to come, to be the best person, best mom I can be.
Again thank you all!
I DID IT!!!!
Thank you everyone who prayed for me today, it means more to me than you would ever know.
I pray for strength and wisdom to make it through the days to come, to be the best person, best mom I can be.
Again thank you all!
i think you did a really brave thing today. your decisions may help your husband as well as yourself. have you gone to any meetings for you? i will continue to keep you and your family in my prayers.
I pray for strength and wisdom to make it through the days to come, to be the best person, best mom I can be.
One day at a time, your life will be better.
Keeping you in my prayers.
Hugs
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As the reality and magnitude of the change begin to set in, remember these triumphant moments and the freedom you experience. It will get you thru the tough times. Hugs!
I made it and we are ok Honestly I cannot believe I did it.. what a day!! As I grabbed the last bag to put into my truck my bestfriend said he was home. He came up the stairs and I said "I'm leaving today" I just went right on and left.
I DID IT!!!!
Thank you everyone who prayed for me today, it means more to me than you would ever know.
I pray for strength and wisdom to make it through the days to come, to be the best person, best mom I can be.
Again thank you all!
I DID IT!!!!
Thank you everyone who prayed for me today, it means more to me than you would ever know.
I pray for strength and wisdom to make it through the days to come, to be the best person, best mom I can be.
Again thank you all!
It may feel funny at first... but you took the right step in the right direction... you CAN do this.
Bless you.
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