Kindeyes

My son informed me a few days ago that he is now addicted to Oxycontin.

I felt nothing as he told me this. Numb perhaps but there was no emotion resulting from his announcement. Is this loving with detachment? Is this it? Feeling nothing as he annouces yet ANOTHER addiction? He's unemployed. He whines about being unemployed and having no money. I listen. But there is nothingness as I listen to him. Empty. Hollow. Nothing.

I love him. I know that. I feel that.

I don't have the overwhelming desire to help him. Am I "over" being codependent? Poof. Like magic.

I want to escape.....leave him to the life he has chosen.....allow him the courtesy of living his choices without my condemnation or approval. Avoid having to watch it happen. Run away.

It's all so odd. Life. Life is odd. Addiction is odd.

Is this detachment..........or perhaps I'm just plain tired.

suki44883

When you get just plain tired, you detach. Sounds like you're there. That's good. You realize there's nothing you can do for him, but that in no way means you don't love him. I understand exactly how you feel, as I'm sure many others here do. ((((HUGS))))

sojourner

Nothing to add here except to agree with the above poster.

Keep coming back.