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Cassandra,
It's so easy to jump to the worst case scenario. Been there, done that. I was at the point where I couldn't trust my intuition anymore--period, end of story. People would tell me, "what does your gut tell you?" and I couldn't say. I didn't know if I was speaking form paranoia or if my spidey sense really was tingling.
Just please go easy on yourself. I don't think it's too much to expect a call if you're going to be 4 hours doing a project that you (and he) thought would only take an hour. I think if you're working this together he has to understand that he's participating in this rebuilding of trust. Maybe I'm in the minority on that one, but I think he can take an active part in that process and you are not out of line saying, "hey, I need to know what's going on sometimes."
Huge hugs!
It's so easy to jump to the worst case scenario. Been there, done that. I was at the point where I couldn't trust my intuition anymore--period, end of story. People would tell me, "what does your gut tell you?" and I couldn't say. I didn't know if I was speaking form paranoia or if my spidey sense really was tingling.
Just please go easy on yourself. I don't think it's too much to expect a call if you're going to be 4 hours doing a project that you (and he) thought would only take an hour. I think if you're working this together he has to understand that he's participating in this rebuilding of trust. Maybe I'm in the minority on that one, but I think he can take an active part in that process and you are not out of line saying, "hey, I need to know what's going on sometimes."
Huge hugs!
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think he can take an active part in that process and you are not out of line saying, "hey, I need to know what's going on sometimes
I agree with this Zombie wife. My RAH started doing this and it made me feel 100% better. He's not always as consistant with it as he should be, but it does make a world of difference. It has a snowball effect on earning my trust back.
I agree with this Zombie wife. My RAH started doing this and it made me feel 100% better. He's not always as consistant with it as he should be, but it does make a world of difference. It has a snowball effect on earning my trust back.
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Again Cassandra, sorry if I'm offending you, but I sooooo know what you're feeling. I guess the diff between you and I is that I'm PO'D!!! That may not be a healthy response, but it is what it is and I'm furious for what I've believed in, trusted in, stood for etc. I'm a bit bitter as you can see, so hopefully you'll take that into consideration when you read this!!!!
I have worked really hard to get here because its a better place for me. Expecting him to prove himself takes to much work on my part. Yes, I watch his actions and yes I listen to what he says to see if it matches up. But I am not sitting here expecting him to make a difference for me. Earning trust back is a given not an expectation. If he continues to walk the walk then trust returns naturally. For me atleast.
I find that if I hang onto resentments and anger it masks my true feelings. I cant express what I really feel because the anger and resentment come out and that accomplishes nothing for me. The anger is usually from something that is causing me fear. Fear of the unknown, fear of going through this again, fear of having to once again stand up for what I believe in even if its the minority. And when I can truly express that I am afraid the anger goes away.
I dont maybe I am rambling but I just feel that holding onto the those emotions for me is useless. It doesnt help any situation just makes it worse.
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