wuzzled

Lost,

You've made a huge step forward and as hard as it was, I'm sure it was the right step. the best step. While your feelings will go up and down for a while, know that serenity will prevail. Stay strong girl, it will be better than ever.


My AH has been clean for a year and I still have not been able to have a rational conversation about MY feelings with him. If I try to, I usually cry at some point and then he says he can't talk to me if I'm crying, and he doesn't need to be "reminded" of anything he has done to hurt me.

Lost, you see you probably would never get that rational conversation about YOUR feelings from him, clean or not. I am foolishly still waiting for.

Keeping you and your kids in my thoughts and prayers!

serenity be with you!

LostInTheWorld

So.. I threw a few words together... and just, wanted to maybe share it with you.. maybe it'll make sense to more than just me.

Sink or swim, you've made your choice,
And you have chosen to let yourself go.
When you could have held on tightly,
You decided to throw.

I tried to pull you up,
Whenever you were down.
But in the end it nearly sank me,
Almost let me drown.

Someday you will wake up,
But I refuse to go on;
Thinking that that time is near,
As you play me like a pawn.

Sink or swim.. have you chosen yet,
If you live or die?
It doesn't matter to you,
How much I want to cry.

But I've found myself,
I've found my strength, my hope, and all my dreams.
Hopefully someday,
You'll sew up your loose seams.

For now you've chosen to run,
Into a life of chaos.
Let us all hope for you,
That you are not a loss.

I throw the lines,
And you refuse.
I beg and plead,
and you abuse.

I love me for who I am,
What can you say for you?
While you lied and deceived,
Forever I've stayed true.