The End Is Near!!!
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The End Is Near!!!
I am three weeks away from our divorce being final and will be very happy to have that behind me. H is in jail and is probably going to prison for a while. He wants me to come see him before the divorce is finalized - Hell No I haven't forgotten what you look like!! I am past the stage of having anger and resentment towards him because that doesn't help me at all so I try not to go there. It is what it is and acceptance has been my saving grace. I still love him but not like I used to. the respect I have for him today is because he's my son's father and that's it. I think about him alot still but always keep that to myself as those are my feelings and thoughts to own.
I'm taking off the day of my divorce hearing and although I'm sure it will be an emotional day for me it will also be my new beginning. We've been married 18 years since we were 18 so I've watched both of us change over the years and it hasn't been all pretty. I really wish he had just got his crap together before it came to a prison sentence for him. Hopefully he's starting to get it but I won't hold my breath on that one. It's sad because son doesn't even want to know where he is or nothing about him.
I'm still in school and work full time so I stay busy but check in here every day to remind myself I'm not alone in my struggle and I can love the addict from far away and that's ok too, whatever works for me. Please keep me and son in your prayers that we will continue to move forward no matter what "daddy" does. He has his journey and we have ours and for that I'm grateful and that we don't live in the chaos and insanity anymore. Nothing is more freeing than getting toxic stuff or people out of your life. hope everyone has a great day.
I'm taking off the day of my divorce hearing and although I'm sure it will be an emotional day for me it will also be my new beginning. We've been married 18 years since we were 18 so I've watched both of us change over the years and it hasn't been all pretty. I really wish he had just got his crap together before it came to a prison sentence for him. Hopefully he's starting to get it but I won't hold my breath on that one. It's sad because son doesn't even want to know where he is or nothing about him.
I'm still in school and work full time so I stay busy but check in here every day to remind myself I'm not alone in my struggle and I can love the addict from far away and that's ok too, whatever works for me. Please keep me and son in your prayers that we will continue to move forward no matter what "daddy" does. He has his journey and we have ours and for that I'm grateful and that we don't live in the chaos and insanity anymore. Nothing is more freeing than getting toxic stuff or people out of your life. hope everyone has a great day.
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Good for you for taking control of your life once again.
You sound great and free! You are so right about getting that toxcity out of your system/life. Nothing feels better than that.
Good luck to you and your child!
Hugs, Devastatedf
You sound great and free! You are so right about getting that toxcity out of your system/life. Nothing feels better than that.
Good luck to you and your child!
Hugs, Devastatedf
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He has his journey and we have ours and for that I'm grateful and that we don't live in the chaos and insanity anymore. Nothing is more freeing than getting toxic stuff or people out of your life.
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