Blah?
 

Okay, so this weekend was the first week in a month that i have not visited with RBF and no Alanon meeting. I usually go to an Alanon meeting the night after visits with RBF.

So, why do I feel so blah? Or, should I say rejuvenated. Is this normal?

I can best describe the feeling as, it didn't bother me that I stayed at home and did nothing. I didn't have this feeling of urgency to be somewhere, talk to someone, see RBF, do anything. I was just all by myself with absolutely NOTHING to do.

I got my massage on Saturday evening, came back home and just slept after watching some movies.

On Sunday (usually visits with RBF and AlAnon meeting), I just lounged around the house, my son was with his grandparents and I had no urge to visit with RBF and/or go to Alanon. What was that all about? I wasn't upset, I wasn't feeling anything actually. Pretty scary I guess.

Does this mean I don't care? Nonchalant about this whole thing? At peace with the situation (finally)? I don't know..... confusing for sure.

A lack of drama, a lack of crisis, a lack of urgency.....that sounds like a lull to me. It was in those lulls in my life that I have felt the most contentment.

Could that be what you've got there....contentment? Happy to just BE?

You could be a whole life around that!

Alice

I haven't looked at it like that Alice and that's probably what it is. Just happy to be in this moment. No need to fix anything, explain anything, do anything, worry about anything.... just be.