Do I take him with me?
ya know if i decide not to eat grapes anymore, i don't hope and pray the STORES stop carrying them, or that they will just stop growing, i take the responsibility for my own decision and don't BUY them.......
i'm sure he wants a normal life. i don't know an addict would tell you that they want to be an addict or that they set out to be an addict. its just so hard to stop the madness once you become addicted.
i pray that he makes it but i pray that you remain aware that relapse are so common. after a relapse, addiction usually don't start the destruction process over from the beginning, it takes up where it leaves off before quitting.
i was asking what you really WANT to do about him going on the trip?
I know at the end it should be all about me. Not him!
"Great" , my ex fiance is out of jail on a work release and he started texting me that he has to talk to me. He said he has to get something off his chest.
My heart is bitting so fast .... I dont know what to do....
My heart is bitting so fast .... I dont know what to do....
Thank you!!!!!
I told him : I'm sorry but i had enough , it does not matter to me anymore what you have to say...
He replied: I need to know . Is ithis coming from your heart?!
so confused.......... Is it? or its just anger that i have?!
I told him : I'm sorry but i had enough , it does not matter to me anymore what you have to say...
He replied: I need to know . Is ithis coming from your heart?!
so confused.......... Is it? or its just anger that i have?!
dream, it could possible be both but you still have time to stop to figure out that for yourself. try not to allow yourself to be pressured into answering his question about anything until you feel you are ready. check your motives and follow your instincts, i think the ball is in your court, its up to you how you handle it.
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It doesn't take the vacation for him to see he messed up. He already knows it, and also knows he is going to lose something amazing, something he wants probably more than anything in the world...and sadly, if he is at all like my ex, (who apparently is VERY MUCH LIKE EVERYONES ex's or addicted whatevers here)...none of that will matter.
I understand now why it is recommended not to get involved until someone IS CLEAN. The process of getting there is HUGE, shakey, unpredicatble, and often unsuccessful....no matter how much the addict or you want it.
My heart still breaks every day when I think of what my ex wants and instead what she has....
oh yeah, just read your last post... a friend once pointed out to me that if we made decsions soley based on our heart (or emotions) there would be a lot more murders in the world. It is smat and necessary to use your head when makign decsions like this...my heart has gotten broken many times by my ex where if I would have listened to my gut and head I would have made better choices for my wellbeing IN THE LONG TERM. Short term it is painful, and basically sucks...
you say that if he's clean by Oct 11 you'll consider taking him on the trip. How will you feel if he's using again by October 25?
And if he is using again. Than its his choice.
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I know...it's what I needed to hear, again, again, and again when I was where you are. Even then it took a while to get thru. This is difficult stuff. I'll take a neuroanatomy class any day over dealing with this emotional/relationship with an addict stuff! I feel for you, been where you are (well not engaged but you get the point). I was just thinking about how I have had almost no communication with her for 2 and 1/2 months and I still think about her tons... feel sad for her, the dreams that I had for us that died..
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My goodness!! I can imagine what you are going through. I honestly believe that your 1st reaction to the situation is always the best descision one makes. Then often doubt creeps in and then your emotion gets the better of you. You try to rationalise it and often you are influenced by others (the mother) and the situation (your ticket is non refunable) His mother is not taking ownership of her son and wants to "make things better". She is asking too much from you and this is the last thing you need!!
He has to take COMPLETE responsibilty and face the consequences to missing his probation. He has not been mindful to himself and his f*up or impotantly not mindful to YOU!! It sounds like you have gone through so much and have alot of history.
Take the situation out of context: If you were married, have children and he missed an IMPORTANT appointment that was for your kids, and just didnt pitch up how would you and your child feel? What if he missed the birth of your child? You would crack, right??
Saying this which I might be contradicting, I feel that you need to take one step at a time. They have to too. Just for today, act on your gut and stick to it - you mean business!!! Wedding is now off and you need to think of yourself 1st. Try and get his ticket changed and take a really good friend, you need support now. You have just ended a potential future. I say that because anything can happen for the 2 of you further down the road. Get his officer to wrirte a letter and send this together with your motivating letter to request the ticket name change and the date that would suite your friend you had in mind to go with.
Just speak to the right person at the airline - a descision maker - and they should be understanding.
Keep your head up high and know you have done the right thing - your insticts never let you down!!
Read what "Truthhurts" said, it makes sense to me!
He has to take COMPLETE responsibilty and face the consequences to missing his probation. He has not been mindful to himself and his f*up or impotantly not mindful to YOU!! It sounds like you have gone through so much and have alot of history.
Take the situation out of context: If you were married, have children and he missed an IMPORTANT appointment that was for your kids, and just didnt pitch up how would you and your child feel? What if he missed the birth of your child? You would crack, right??
Saying this which I might be contradicting, I feel that you need to take one step at a time. They have to too. Just for today, act on your gut and stick to it - you mean business!!! Wedding is now off and you need to think of yourself 1st. Try and get his ticket changed and take a really good friend, you need support now. You have just ended a potential future. I say that because anything can happen for the 2 of you further down the road. Get his officer to wrirte a letter and send this together with your motivating letter to request the ticket name change and the date that would suite your friend you had in mind to go with.
Just speak to the right person at the airline - a descision maker - and they should be understanding.
Keep your head up high and know you have done the right thing - your insticts never let you down!!
Read what "Truthhurts" said, it makes sense to me!
I am not adding to this thread any more, although I wish you the best. You are going to convince yourself to take him anyway..no matter what the rest of us think. Just don't hold any luggage or bags for him. Pack your own, carry your own, and don't let him have access to yours. My heart breaks for what you are going to do to yourself.
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I am not adding to this thread any more, although I wish you the best. You are going to convince yourself to take him anyway..no matter what the rest of us think. Just don't hold any luggage or bags for him. Pack your own, carry your own, and don't let him have access to yours. My heart breaks for what you are going to do to yourself.
KJ
KJ
I am for women and loved ones NOT opening and leaving theirself open to get they stuff stolen by someone who'll earnestly help you look for it knowing they got it. When my AH relapses he knows the drill -- he got to leave the house, go live in the streets because it will not be me. So when kj made the *money statement* SHE SPOKE MY LANGUAGE!! The flight money loss -- that's a small thing so don't even stress it. Let it go girl, just don't let him go!!
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