He broke into my email
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He broke into my email
Bad situation on my hands. My abf broke into my private email and read emails between myself and his psychiatrist. I know I should have deleted them, but kept them as reassurance that I was on the right track when abf was able to convince me that he didn't have a problem. Anyway, of course the psychiatrist's role is to lead him to figure it out for himself and has been trying to gently do that, while telling me that he knows he has a problem and getting more information from me as to what goes on at home. As I said, abf did a password request and was able to get into my email. I'm so mad at him for breaking into my email account and mad at myself for having kept them. I never thought he would go to that length.
I woke up this morning and there's a note saying, "I have proof that you are lying to me and so is the doctor. Who do i trust now?".
This doctor was doing a great job with him and had gained his trust. I'm so mad at the whole situation and I'm not sure what to do.
I woke up this morning and there's a note saying, "I have proof that you are lying to me and so is the doctor. Who do i trust now?".
This doctor was doing a great job with him and had gained his trust. I'm so mad at the whole situation and I'm not sure what to do.
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Its very unfortunate that all of this happened. But your abf has a point. His psychiatrist was making progress with him and should have never violated that trust and confidentiality he had with your abf. Despite the fact that it helped you, it was unethical on the doctor's part and I'm sorry it happened. Perhaps your abf needs to find a new doctor, for both of your sakes. Keep us updated.
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His doctor didn't break confidentiality. He was given permission to talk to me privately about his care. I am at fault for keeping the emails. And abf is at fault for breaking into my email.
Sorry that happened, you must feel awful. I would explain to him that you were only trying to help and if he truly wants help and was being honest with the Dr. then really there is no harm done. I understand what you were doing because the Dr. only really knows what the patient tells them, which I am sure they leave a lot out. Makes you wonder why he was trying to get into your email in the first place.
Sounds to me like you both need to decide if this relationship is salvageable and if you each want to continue with it. If, in fact, you both do, perhaps he should revoke his permission for his psychiatrist to discuss his sessions, and you should get a new password for your email. Just my two cents worth.
Also, separate counseling or nar-anon might be good for you.
Also, separate counseling or nar-anon might be good for you.
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He's been accusing me of cheating because I've pulled away from him because of the addiction. Doesn't believe me when i tell him it's just the addiction and there's nobody else. So I'm sure he was trying to find proof that I'm cheating (which I'm not).
What's done is done. I hope you both can work things out and maybe get some counseling together.
And I'd make sure my e-mail was more secure. Regardless of what is there, nobody has the right to break in.
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And I'd make sure my e-mail was more secure. Regardless of what is there, nobody has the right to break in.
Hugs
True, your abf shouldn't have broken into your email and he was wrong, however, both of you were at fault in this situation. That's just my opinion. Everyone played a part in mistrusting the other including the psychiatrist.
Unfortunately, this is what addiction does to families. No one trusts the other and the cycle continues until ALL can step back and say, "Yep, I played my part (whatever that may be) and I'm sorry."
I have learned not to engage in these back and forth banters with my abf. I give him choices including one of them to shut up because his quacking annoys the hell out of me. I have become stronger to realize that I don't deserve to be accused, given an attitude, etc. because he wants to use. I also have learned that an addict will accuse cheating because THEY themselves are sexually inadequate and they know it.
Trust me... it's HIS issue... not yours. I hope you are able to set some boundaries with him and protect yourself.
Last edited by URMYEVERYTHING; 09-05-2009 at 06:57 AM.
No doubt, he's in the wrong for breaking into your email. But, I think you're also in the wrong for maintaining an ongoing dialogue with his doctor. This is why we shouldn't even be a part of their recovery process. If I were in his shoes, I would start over with a new shrink that adheres to patient confidentiality.
From my point of view the only one at fault here is the abf for breaking into her email. What about THAT trust issue? That's what happens when you snoop around where you don't belong....you run the risk of finding out something you don't like. Oh well, I guess he found what he's looking for.... a reason to use. Plain and simple.
Just to clarify, I don't want to place blame on anyone in any situation. Everyone does need to take responsibility in the parts they have played in a relationship. It's not always on our addicts. Sometimes, we (co-addicts) have to look at ourselves.
The psychiatrist is the professional in this triangle, and in my opinion, it will be his responsibility to bring both of you into his office and with his expertise deal with this enormous breakdown of trust. This is not for you to fix. The ball is in the doctor's court and I would let him make the shot.
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I was gone when abf got up. He had an appointment with the doc a couple hours ago and he's not back yet so I'm not sure what is being discussed. I understand how he must be feeling and yet I'm so mad that he would do something like get into my email. There's a new level of distrust on my end that I'm not sure can be repaired. He crossed a line. I just want to dissappear.
Change your email and stop discussing his recovery with his Pdoc. His recovery is his and you need to work on your own issues of being in a relationship with a recovering addict. Get your own counseling and leave him to his. If this relationship is going to go forward, you both need to work on your own issues and stop meddling in the others. Just my additional two cents worth.
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Abf is not in recovery. He is in denial. His doc was just trying to help him by getting a better idea of what is really hapening. It had not been ongoing dialouge, but just a few emails so he could better understand the real situation. And he had told him that we were emailing and shared with him what we discussed. He did spend a little time explaining to me the method he was using with him so that it wouldn't appear confusing to me which I apprecaited. We haven't spoken lately and will not be speaking anytime in the future I'm sure. I've already changed my email. I feel that nothing is safe now. I no longer feel I have any privacy or respect. He will go to any lengths with complete disregard for me. I imagine this is what it feels like when someone breaks into your home and steals from you. I feel violated. What a freaking mess.
Well, if that's the way you feel, then maybe you need to consider whether or not you wish to remain in this relationship. I mean...do you want to continue to live with someone who doesn't trust you and you don't trust either? What kind of a relationship is that? What are you getting out of it?
We can only respond to what you post, and from what you have posted, there are major trust issues involved here. Sounds to me like it's time for some soul searching on your part regarding whether or not this is what you want for yourself. You obviously realize that you cannot make him into what you want him to be. So, you have to decide whether or not to wait it out and see if things improve, or move on with your own life. I wish you the best.
We can only respond to what you post, and from what you have posted, there are major trust issues involved here. Sounds to me like it's time for some soul searching on your part regarding whether or not this is what you want for yourself. You obviously realize that you cannot make him into what you want him to be. So, you have to decide whether or not to wait it out and see if things improve, or move on with your own life. I wish you the best.
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Being sneaky is not just a trait reserved for addicts.
In hindsight, it was a blessing for both of us.
When she was finally placed into a foster home, thus began the process of the state setting her up for regular counseling through a mental health center.
I knew good and well she was going to give 'her side' of things at the counseling sessions. There was a huge part of me that wanted to directly talk to her counselor and say "look, this is the hell I have been living with for so long now."
But you know what? I wasn't allowed to do that, and thank God. Instead the state had me busy with my own stuff like attending parenting classes geared towards teens, and attending my own individual counseling for myself.
My daughter's counselor did just fine without my 'help'.
My daughter and I both took away many good lessons from that experience, even though it was incredibly painful at times. One of the biggest things that I learned is that the world wasn't going to fall apart if I wasn't in charge, or trying to manage things because I thought I knew what was best for someone else.
That daughter still lives at home with me at the age of 21. She has her own stuff to deal with. I stay out of her stuff 99% of the time, and if I feel myself falling into old behaviors, I either post on SR or call my sponsor.
She's an adult and I give her the dignity to make her own choices, whether I agree with them or not. She also knows she can talk to me about anything, and often does. I doubt we would have that kind of relationship today had I continued to micro-manage her life in one way or another.
When my daughter first started therapy we all had the same arrangement. She knew her psychologist and I exchanged emails and the contents were sometimes used during their sessions, though I didn't know the details.
That ended very soon when all three of us became uncomfortable and at about the same time. I was referred to another psychologist, began my own recovery and left her alone to deal with hers.
My emotional health has thrived since then
That ended very soon when all three of us became uncomfortable and at about the same time. I was referred to another psychologist, began my own recovery and left her alone to deal with hers.
My emotional health has thrived since then
Again, I'm sorry you are going through this. Just take a look at the role you play in this as well when the anger clears. It will all come into perspective for you.
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