MyJoey

Get ready to cry over this one, I found this on another site and wanted to share it here. It is so sad.

I wrote this poem to my Dad after he passed away on November 25, 2003 due to Hepatitis C and Cocaine Abuse.

"I Never Understood"

I felt such bitterness,
So much anger.
The man I called my Dad,
Was nothing but a stranger.

The drugs and alcohol,
I couldn't comprehend.
I never understood it,
Until your road came to an end.

Looking through your things,
I began to understand.
How quickly an addiction,
Can turn upon a man.

I read your own words,
And could sense your pain.
I felt your guilt and anger,
Driving you insane.

I wish I could've taken away,
The hurt you felt inside.
Instead I focused on my own pain,
And ran away to hide.

I'd rather you be in Heaven,
Receiving tons of hugs,
Than being here on earth,
Battling a beast called Drugs.

I never understood,
But now I think I do.
And all that really matters now,
Is Dad, I LOVE YOU!

hope213

this is so sad & i am crying because they do feel guilty. i can feel the hurt my son has over his children but the bottom line is he did not get clean.sometimes there bottom is a 6' hole & it is so scary that the next one can be our addict.

MyJoey

When I look at him all I see is me
back in the days where I was young, careless, and free.
When I look at him, I sense the fear
Because his emotions are truly sincere.
When I look at him, I feel the pain
His self worth he is trying to regain.
When I look at him, he just doesnt see
What potential he has and what he could be.
When I look in his eyes, I can feel his greif
Belonging, would be such a relief.
His heart pours out with emotional struggle
So many things he is trying to juggle.
His intention is not to deceive
As he lives with his heart on his sleeve.
Addiction has him trapped inside
Ripping and tearing and causing us to divide.
Emotionally draining would be the term
While giving up would be easy, we have to stand firm.
When I look at him, I cant just abandon hope
Looking for other measures to help him cope.
Wondering why he causes such hurtful inflictions
What are his personal convictions?
An old cliche, some may say
But together, we will help him find his way.
We are your family and love you thru thick and thin
but the change for you, for us, has to come from within.

Looking at you Bro, I see that part of me
Together, as your family, we will help you break free.

(My daughter wrote this one......she's a (cody) can you tell?)