AD possibly doing Meth now....
 

I posted on here a few times a year and a half ago about my AD going in to rehab for her addiction to Xanax and Soma and she is an alcoholic. She didn't stay clean for long after rehab. She went right back to drinking but did not jump back into pills. She married and that in itself has been a roller coaster. Recently I felt like she was using something again and I figured it was prescription drugs. She was/is sleeping alot and she just sounds different on the phone. I asked her about it and she denied it and became mildly annoyed that I would "accuse" her. I told her I was just curious and concerned for her but I would believe her and I loved her. The next day her husband called while they were fighting (another long story!) and told me that she was hanging with some dopeheads and using Meth. The emotions that I felt overcame me. Shock and sadness are just a couple. As a mother, guilt still racks me. I don't know if she knows what her husband told me. I have been praying ever since....

Meth use is completely inconsistent with sleeping a lot. I don't know what else to say but I will send up a prayer for you and your AD.

I guess you are right about the sleeping alot thing. I know that she is up most of the night and sleeps in the day..so maybe she isn't sleeping anymore than anyone else just at a different time. I don't have any reason to believe her husband would lie about it....but I don't know. She is definitely doing something different.

Two things I just wanted to comment on.

It's 2:30 in the morning and I can't sleep.
I'm not on meth, but some would wonder.....

I just have a hard time sleeping, always have.
I stress to much.
But you could sit here forever and try and figure
out if I "was really" using, but in the end what
is it really going to change.


Nothing is going to change.
Either I am using or I am not.
You can't change it.
Trust me if I want to do meth, I WILL do it.


I don't mean to say this is about me, but being a former
meth addict, I just mean try and take care of yourself
and let her do what she needs to do as hard as that is.
You can drive yourself crazy trying to figure out the game
that meth plays.

This IS NOT your fault, you didn't cause it, and you can't fix it.
You can just love her enough to let her stand on her own two
feet and do what she needs to do.
Lots of things have happened in my life, both good and bad,
but it's no ones fault that I did meth.
My Mom isn't Perfect, ha ha, lol.... but it sure isn't her fault
that I did meth. That is putting a lot of self importance on yourself. :Val004:
You Mom's aren't expected to be perfect NOR are you expected
to raise perfect daughters. It's just part of life, you did nothing to cause
this. You are off the hook, really, ask any meth addict or any addict in recovery.

:ghug

It could be Methadone that her husband is talking about. When someone says Dopehead they are usually referring to heroin. If your daughter was using Soma before it could be that she is using methadone. My daughter's DOC was heroin. She hated the uppers like Cocaine and Methamphetimines. But no matter what the drug, the outcome is still the same. Try and take care of you and let your daughter figure it out for herself. Hugs, Marle

Although the sleeping a lot, does sound inconsistent with meth, your gut is telling you she's using "something". Though not always, the guts of addict's mom's are usually pretty accurate.

As a recovering addict, I totally agree with miss Done. I became an A (addict) in SPITE of the way I was raised, not BECAUSE of it. I know some A's will blame anyone or anything for their using. It's BS...it's just the A's way of denying responsibility for thier own actions.

Let go of the guilt..it's not yours to carry. Focus on you, and let your AD face the consequences of using. That's what got most of us into recovery.

Hugs and prayers!

Amy

Thanks to all of you for your words of encouragement and advice. It's a day to day struggle as you all know.

Try to forget the guilt. Addiction is an equal opportunity destroyer.
As moms, we didn't cause it.

I do understand how profoundly sad it is when we hear about relapse.
It often takes numerous attempts at sobriety before it becomes a way of life.
My son is at his 3rd rehab.
Our task is to find strategies to have the serenity & joy that we deserve and not let the sadness overwhelm us.