Maggiemac

I am so sorry for you loss I know how you feel my son died of a overdose 11-19-08. I have all the some questions you have and may never get a answer to. The grief I feel is very hard for me. Keep coming here and read It will help you understand some of the questions about addiction, this place has helped me understand a little about a addict. I loved my son and still do he was my only child and I miss him everyday. Just remember he had to help himself.
So very Sorry
Maggiemac

Spiritual Seeker

Addiction is a fatal disease...so sorry it struck your home.
Even in this tragedy may you remember the good in your guy and why you loved him.

After the shock wears off, be sure to have yourself tested for hepatitus and AIDS since you have been with an IV drug user.

lilmami

Oh nic my heart aches for you.I lost my partner much the same way as you,I was 8 months pregnant.I too has no idea,he had used years before but to my knowledge was clean and hadn;t thought of it.I was so so angry at him!I was about to give birth and he sticks a needle in his arm!WTF!!I felt guilt and shame and remorse and so many other emotions which i still do today 8 years later.Now however I just feel sad . . sad he will never see the amazing daughter we created , sad she will never know the man that was so proud to have made her and sad for me to lose the man I live like this.I have remarried but will never get over him,don't think it's possible.Nic you need to let yourself feel every emotion and go with it.i was told it -grief- is like the sea,sometimes calm and other days angry and dark.His family and I know how he died,I will tell our daughter one day as I feel she has the right to know.I will pray for you xxoo

Nicola88

Thank you all for your responses, all very great, and yes so good to know that their have been similar situations. Any glance at his life is helpful, and assists in making some kind of sense to the situation.

I have had all my tests done and its all clean - thank god for that!

Everyday is different, yet still the same..

shockozulu

Nic, I'm so sorry to hear about this. I can tell you what a friend of mine did. She lost her husband to a rx drug overdose. Since technically it stopped his heart, she simply tells most people who know that he died from cardiac arrest.