Alaia

I think I might have taken some of the comments too personal. Only I know my whole situation and if I didn't want people's opinions...I shouldn't have posted the update. Thank you to everyone for your advice and concern and support. I am sorry I got upset/defensive yesterday. Now that I have had time to think things through a little I guess it's good some people are devil's advocate in a way. I guess I needed to hear it, maybe I just didn't want to. Denial....gotta work on that one. I am still learning.