A Holiday but Better if She was Clean
 

Yes I'm celebrating the 4th of July but I'm wondering where my addicted daughter is and if she is safe. The days between contact are so difficult. I wish she was with me, having hot dogs and hamburgers and thinking of the future. But alas, she is God only knows where so today I follow my steps and remind myself to Let Go and Let God.

Being the parent of a drug addicted child is nothing but painful but I am learning thru Nar Anon that I must live my life and make it a good one so here's hoping I hear from her...

Here's hoping she is safe...

Here's wishing all you other parents in the same boat a happy 4th and ...

Here is me giving it over to God to take care of her while I'm living my life.

Thanks for reading and pray with me that our kids make it thru another day!

Hello.
Add me to the list of those praying for you and your daughter.
We come here for venting as well as inspiration through words, but sometimes there are few words suitable to express one's own grief and frustration, or empathy from those like me who identify with the helplessness of similar situations.
Let Go Let God is right......believe it.
Blessings,
Rivka

4th of July is/was my AD favorite holiday! But I am so angry that I am here sick as dog trying to do something for HER children while she is God knows where doing God knows what.

(((((Seagrl7))))

(((((Painter)))))

Seagrl7, your recovery is shining...prayers for your you and daughter...
I hope you have a great day in spite of everything..Hugs, Grateful

I know what you are feeling. I was with my big extended family yesterday on the 4th.
I am blessed with a wonderfully loving family.
But when your child is missing from the picture you can't help but feel the loss. Especially with all the past fun memories shared with them on that holiday before the addiction. when they were clean and whole and safe and trustworthy.
so it can hurt even as you look at your blessings. A piece just feels missing.

Good for you, forcing yourself to "have" a 4th. I do hope it was a good one. Here in northwestern NJ, fireworks all got rained out, but my husband and I went out for dinner at a seafood place we never tried before, and before that, I got a new litter box for the kitties, and 2 new 'summer reads' at Borders for myself. As far as what my addict daughter was doing on July
4th -that's an easy one; she was getting high, as I'm pretty sure yours was as well. And another thing I can safely bet is that neither one of them were stressing over how their mothers were!!