Hey Guess What!!!!!!!!~~~~!!!!!!!
*~10 YEARS BABY~*
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Hey Guess What!!!!!!!!~~~~!!!!!!! 
TWO YEARS ~ 6 MONTHS TODAY
I am only writing this cause I want to say Thank Your to so many of you who have helped me so much the last few months.
Most of you know the last few months have been pretty rocky, to say the least.
Things are all back to normal now, but Hello Hell it was for a while there.
I was so happy and stable there, and so not even close to slipping back to the meth hell that I forgot how easy it would have been.
But when you are that close to suicide and when you mind goes off track for reasons you don't know,
using meth or anything to feel better for just a few minutes does not seem like a big deal.
I know it would have been, and I would be more suicidal trying to get off it had I have caved in, but I just wasn't thinking clearly.
So many of you helped me every day, through posts, pms, phone calls, and many kept reaching out because they just sense something was up..
So I just wanted to Thank You all again....
I'm once again back in my game. Things are going better for me than they have in a long time. It always amazes me how after being so suicidal things can be so different just two, three weeks later. And how I can see things so different. I guess that really proves it is a chemical IMBALANCE.
Wheres the Prozac. LOL.... Damn Parents... Can't even get their chemical rights.... I always tell my Mom, Itsnot MY fault you and Dad couldnt get your chemicals right when you were doing the wild thing..
She is like OH DONE.....
Only 6 MORE months and I will have 3 YEARS!
You get your fill to eat
But always keep that hunger
May you never take one single breath for granted
God forbid love ever leave you empty handed
I hope you still feel small
When you stand by the ocean
Whenever one door closes, I hope one more opens
Promise me you'll give faith a fighting chance
And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance
I hope you dance
I hope you dance
I hope you never fear those mountains in the distance
Never settle for the path of least resistance
Living might mean taking chances
But they're worth taking
Lovin' might be a mistake
But it's worth making
Don't let some hell bent heart
Leave you bitter
When you come close to selling out
Reconsider
Give the heavens above
More than just a passing glance
And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance
I hope you dance
(Time is a real and constant motion always)
I hope you dance
(Rolling us along)
I hope you dance
(Tell me who)
I hope you dance
(Wants to look back on their youth and wonder)
(Where those years have gone)
I hope you still feel small
When you stand by the ocean
Whenever one door closes, I hope one more opens
Promise me you'll give faith a fighting chance
And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance
Dance
I hope you dance
I hope you dance
(Time is a real and constant motion always)
I hope you dance
(Rolling us along)
I hope you dance
(Tell me who)
(Wants to look back on their youth and wonder)
I hope you dance
(Where those years have gone)
(Tell me who)
I hope you dance
(Wants to look back on their youth and wonder)
(Where those years have gone)
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(((Done)))
You are absolutely amazing and I love you dearly! You've often said things that said what I felt, but couldn't put words to.
I'm glad you're back on track. I do worry about you when I don't see you here.
I hope that when I get to 2-1/2 years, I'm half as insightful and inspiring as you are!
Hugs and prayers!
Amy
You are absolutely amazing and I love you dearly! You've often said things that said what I felt, but couldn't put words to.
I'm glad you're back on track. I do worry about you when I don't see you here.
I hope that when I get to 2-1/2 years, I'm half as insightful and inspiring as you are!
Hugs and prayers!
Amy
*~10 YEARS BABY~*
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Originally Posted by Impurrfect 
(((Done)))
You are absolutely amazing and I love you dearly! You've often said things that said what I felt, but couldn't put words to.
I'm glad you're back on track. I do worry about you when I don't see you here.
I hope that when I get to 2-1/2 years, I'm half as insightful and inspiring as you are!
Hugs and prayers!
Amy
You are absolutely amazing and I love you dearly! You've often said things that said what I felt, but couldn't put words to.
I'm glad you're back on track. I do worry about you when I don't see you here.
I hope that when I get to 2-1/2 years, I'm half as insightful and inspiring as you are!
Hugs and prayers!
Amy
*~10 YEARS BABY~*
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Originally Posted by caileesnana
You are a doll and a blessing. I love that song too. When my son left for Iraq that song was popular. The words are so, so true!!
One of my oldest and best friends sent that to me when I was in my meth addiction (she doesn't know, didn't know and still doesn't) she doesn't live around here..
She sends me the sweetest things. It was one of the songs I used to always here when I was really really close to giving up. It was kind of erie.
She is a devote Christian also. It used to freak me out..
I remember one night having my meth, bottle of pills, and pen and paper to write goodbye notes, but wondering....
And that song came on like three times...
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(((Done)))
CONGRATS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I am so PROUD of you for making it this far. You have helped me understand so much about this illness, and because of you I am able to help others understand it better.
As a Mom of a RAS who is 18 months clean, you give me so much hope for the future for him. You are a very strong young lady and one of the sweetest people I know.
Keep going strong and know we are proud of you
Love you
CONGRATS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I am so PROUD of you for making it this far. You have helped me understand so much about this illness, and because of you I am able to help others understand it better.
As a Mom of a RAS who is 18 months clean, you give me so much hope for the future for him. You are a very strong young lady and one of the sweetest people I know.
Keep going strong and know we are proud of you
Love you
*~10 YEARS BABY~*
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Originally Posted by pjbs55
(((Done)))
CONGRATS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I am so PROUD of you for making it this far. You have helped me understand so much about this illness, and because of you I am able to help others understand it better.
As a Mom of a RAS who is 18 months clean, you give me so much hope for the future for him. You are a very strong young lady and one of the sweetest people I know.
Keep going strong and know we are proud of you
Love you
CONGRATS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I am so PROUD of you for making it this far. You have helped me understand so much about this illness, and because of you I am able to help others understand it better.
As a Mom of a RAS who is 18 months clean, you give me so much hope for the future for him. You are a very strong young lady and one of the sweetest people I know.
Keep going strong and know we are proud of you
Love you
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Well Miss Done,
I am soooo glad that things are back on track for you. Keep it going girl, I need you to be on here. You just have a way of saying the right things that a mom needs to hear.
I also worry about you when you aren't here.
Luv ya.............Lo
I am soooo glad that things are back on track for you. Keep it going girl, I need you to be on here. You just have a way of saying the right things that a mom needs to hear.
I also worry about you when you aren't here.
Luv ya.............Lo
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Miss Done, You are sooooooooo amazing and special to us too.
sending BIG HUGS... and CONGRATS!
So glad to hear you are back on track. Thank you for sharing
your weaknesses and your triumphs with us. You are such
an inspiration.
sending BIG HUGS... and CONGRATS!
So glad to hear you are back on track. Thank you for sharing
your weaknesses and your triumphs with us. You are such
an inspiration.
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I'm so happy for you!!!!!
The pride, happiness, joy . . . . you are feeling is just oozing out of my computer!! lol
Calendar wise, you aren't too far behind me. I celebrated my 2.5 in January and can't wait to be 3!! People tell me not to "jinx" myself, but you know what, I don't believe in jinx's. I do believe how Blessed and overjoyed you, me and others who "have got it" feel, no matter what happens in our lives, we know that NOTHING is worth using over. So many times I want to stand on a roof and shout out "I'm Happy, Joyous & Free!"
You are a wonderful example of how applying the principals in all our affairs can change someone's life to the point that you are no where near that person you were 2.5 years ago.
When I hit 6 months, 9 months, 1 year,2 years, 2.5, I felt like telling everyone I even saw that day. On my 2.5, I went to the gas station and the attendant made the comment that I looked especially happy that morning. He asked me if I met someone special the night before. I simply looked at him and said, "Naw, that happened two and a half years ago today" If he only knew what I meant by that. I surrendered. I found my H.P. whom I choose to call God. It's true, with God, ALL things are possible.
Congratulations again and shine bright!
God Bless You Today and Everyday!
Judy
*~10 YEARS BABY~*
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Originally Posted by serenityqueen
I'm so happy for you!!!!!
The pride, happiness, joy . . . . you are feeling is just oozing out of my computer!! lol
Calendar wise, you aren't too far behind me. I celebrated my 2.5 in January and can't wait to be 3!! People tell me not to "jinx" myself, but you know what, I don't believe in jinx's. I do believe how Blessed and overjoyed you, me and others who "have got it" feel, no matter what happens in our lives, we know that NOTHING is worth using over. So many times I want to stand on a roof and shout out "I'm Happy, Joyous & Free!"
You are a wonderful example of how applying the principals in all our affairs can change someone's life to the point that you are no where near that person you were 2.5 years ago.
When I hit 6 months, 9 months, 1 year,2 years, 2.5, I felt like telling everyone I even saw that day. On my 2.5, I went to the gas station and the attendant made the comment that I looked especially happy that morning. He asked me if I met someone special the night before. I simply looked at him and said, "Naw, that happened two and a half years ago today" If he only knew what I meant by that. I surrendered. I found my H.P. whom I choose to call God. It's true, with God, ALL things are possible.
Congratulations again and shine bright!
God Bless You Today and Everyday!
Judy
lol, I know what you mean about people telling you not to jinx yourself.
From the day I got here I've had people telling me what I do wrong in my
recovery, and that I shouldn't look towards my three years, only look at today, I am going to fail if I don't do meetings, some have even told me
I'm not really clean cuz I take meds. Some have told me stuff in posts,
some have sent me pm's and some in emails.
I learned to stay close to those who support me only, and take in what helps, process what may help and throw out what doesn't work.
The last few days I had a few incidents that happened and even just a year ago, the same thing may have rocked me a bit. These things happened to happen in front of a BUNCH of people, in the end everyone was like,
omg, how did you do that, I would have........
I was like, cuz it wasn't 'My' stuff. I'm not going to become the victim, or make myself out to be an enemy.
It just amazes me what we can do when we want to...
When we put as much energy into recovery and into ourselves as we did self destructing, we can be the people everyone around us thinks we are...
I'm still not sure how I made it through or how I even got to that place again where I just was, or how I got out, but just knowing that i had today to look forward to, helped me get out.
I still have a lot to work on. I'm not even close to the place where I want to be, but I'm a lot farther than I as a year ago...
8Thanks SQ
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Miss Done,
I am so happy for you, your thread warms my heart to know you have fought such a brave battle, to come out the victor. You are a shining example of recovery, I'm proud to call you my friend. Hugs to you, sweetie.
Dare To Dream
Let nothing hold you back from
exploring your wildest fantasies,
wishes, and aspirations.
Don't be afraid to dream big
and to follow your dreams
wherever they may lead you.
Open your eyes to their beauty;
open your mind to their magic;
open your heart to their possibilities.
Dare to dream.
Whether they are in color
or in black and white,
whether they are big or small,
easily attainable or almost impossible,
look to your dreams,
and make them become reality.
Wishes and hopes are nothing
until you take the first step
towards making them something!
Dare to dream,
Because only by dreaming,
will you ever discover
who you are, what you want,
and what you can do.
Don't be afraid to take risks,
to become involved,
to make commitment.
Do whatever it takes to make
your dreams come true.
Always believe in miracles,
and always believe in you!
~ Julie Anne Ford ~
I am so happy for you, your thread warms my heart to know you have fought such a brave battle, to come out the victor. You are a shining example of recovery, I'm proud to call you my friend. Hugs to you, sweetie.
Dare To Dream
Let nothing hold you back from
exploring your wildest fantasies,
wishes, and aspirations.
Don't be afraid to dream big
and to follow your dreams
wherever they may lead you.
Open your eyes to their beauty;
open your mind to their magic;
open your heart to their possibilities.
Dare to dream.
Whether they are in color
or in black and white,
whether they are big or small,
easily attainable or almost impossible,
look to your dreams,
and make them become reality.
Wishes and hopes are nothing
until you take the first step
towards making them something!
Dare to dream,
Because only by dreaming,
will you ever discover
who you are, what you want,
and what you can do.
Don't be afraid to take risks,
to become involved,
to make commitment.
Do whatever it takes to make
your dreams come true.
Always believe in miracles,
and always believe in you!
~ Julie Anne Ford ~
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