OT - I'm in a very sensitive place
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OT - I'm in a very sensitive place
Well it was almost a year ago that Dakota was diagnosed with a wilms tumor (kidney cancer)
Her sister, Savanna's birthday is 3-2 and we had celebrated her birthday a week or so late at chucky cheese and March 19th was the night I took her to the emergency room because her tummy looked like an overblown balloon. I thought she might just be constipated, but no, she had kidney cancer. We just celebrated Savanna's birthday and all kinds of memories are flooding me to the core.
Lately Dakota has been saying that her tummy hurts .. I am thinking it is just because she has to go potty or she is hungry (something, anything, but the other) she is not due for scans until next month ... I am finding myself fearful.
I guess I also feel guilty because I haven't been the best mommy lately. I feel I have taken for granted that she is better and then I remember how very fragile life is and how in an instant things could change.
I am trying not to give my fears to much power. It is hard, but I am placing my trust in the Lord. I believe, I believe .. I believe he has healed her and her cancer is never coming back .. NEVER EVER EVER.
(weep last for a night, but joy cometh in the morning) - is the scripture that came to me a few days before she was diagnosed ... There were many times I wept and sometimes I still do .. today I do ..last year was the year for weeping .. this year is the year for Joy! Today I will look for solace in those words and ask my friends here to lift Dakota up in prayer and thank you from the bottom of my heart for all the times you have done so in the past.
Humbly,
Passion
Her sister, Savanna's birthday is 3-2 and we had celebrated her birthday a week or so late at chucky cheese and March 19th was the night I took her to the emergency room because her tummy looked like an overblown balloon. I thought she might just be constipated, but no, she had kidney cancer. We just celebrated Savanna's birthday and all kinds of memories are flooding me to the core.
Lately Dakota has been saying that her tummy hurts .. I am thinking it is just because she has to go potty or she is hungry (something, anything, but the other) she is not due for scans until next month ... I am finding myself fearful.
I guess I also feel guilty because I haven't been the best mommy lately. I feel I have taken for granted that she is better and then I remember how very fragile life is and how in an instant things could change.
I am trying not to give my fears to much power. It is hard, but I am placing my trust in the Lord. I believe, I believe .. I believe he has healed her and her cancer is never coming back .. NEVER EVER EVER.
(weep last for a night, but joy cometh in the morning) - is the scripture that came to me a few days before she was diagnosed ... There were many times I wept and sometimes I still do .. today I do ..last year was the year for weeping .. this year is the year for Joy! Today I will look for solace in those words and ask my friends here to lift Dakota up in prayer and thank you from the bottom of my heart for all the times you have done so in the past.
Humbly,
Passion
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I have read almost everything you've posted on Dakota and I don't know how you do it.
You have shown such strength and courage.
stay strong
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You have shown such strength and courage.
stay strong
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My prayers are with you and have been this whole year.
However, knowing what you know on how this started, please do not wait until next month for the scan, if her tummy continues to hurt today, please call her DR. My attitude is always "better safe than sorry." I do believe the Dr will understand after what that little angel has been through.
Prayers continuing to wing their way from New Mexico.
Love and hugs,
However, knowing what you know on how this started, please do not wait until next month for the scan, if her tummy continues to hurt today, please call her DR. My attitude is always "better safe than sorry." I do believe the Dr will understand after what that little angel has been through.
Prayers continuing to wing their way from New Mexico.
Love and hugs,
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I just got off the phone with the advise nurse from Dakota's pediatric oncology office. She seems to think that it might be that Dakota isn't going regularly and suggested that we give her colace (sp?) for about a week and then if she is still complaining to bring her in. I do know that she has been having bowel movement issues this past couple weeks so I'm going to give it a go and hope that it gets resolved. I have to take Savanna in for a well check up next thursday and I am bringing Dakota regardless ... sooner if things don't start changing soon.
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(((Passion))
Great big hugs, and lots and lots of prayers coming your way....
I agree, if she is not feeling well, even one little itty bitty thing, don't hesitate call her Dr.
Experiencing what you have experienced with Dakota, little aches and hurts seem to take on new meaning.
Hugs to you, you're a wonderful mom.
Great big hugs, and lots and lots of prayers coming your way....
I agree, if she is not feeling well, even one little itty bitty thing, don't hesitate call her Dr.
Experiencing what you have experienced with Dakota, little aches and hurts seem to take on new meaning.
Hugs to you, you're a wonderful mom.
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(((Nyte))) and ((((Dakota))))
I'm glad you checked in with the doctor. I hope the colace works and she feels better. I was a nurse for 12 years, and I would probably go into emotional overdrive any time she felt bad if it were my daughter.
Hugs and prayers!
Amy
I'm glad you checked in with the doctor. I hope the colace works and she feels better. I was a nurse for 12 years, and I would probably go into emotional overdrive any time she felt bad if it were my daughter.
Hugs and prayers!
Amy
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******{Passion}}}} I am praying for you and Dakota.
Today is a new day. There are no perfect parents. You are doing the best you can based on the infomation and feelings you have at each moment. Please don't let the guilt of yesterday steal time from your precious today.
I used to feel stupid going to the doctor and having them tell me my child will be just fine with a little rest and Tylenol. I have no regrets, because there have also been times when my child did need medical care or he could have gotten much worse. I think it's better to have troubled the doctor over nothing than to ignore something that needed attention.
May God Bless and Protect You and the Passion Family.
Today is a new day. There are no perfect parents. You are doing the best you can based on the infomation and feelings you have at each moment. Please don't let the guilt of yesterday steal time from your precious today.
I used to feel stupid going to the doctor and having them tell me my child will be just fine with a little rest and Tylenol. I have no regrets, because there have also been times when my child did need medical care or he could have gotten much worse. I think it's better to have troubled the doctor over nothing than to ignore something that needed attention.
May God Bless and Protect You and the Passion Family.
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