I feel MISERABLE and need HOPE
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Join Date: Feb 2007
Location: Wabbit Hole
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I feel MISERABLE and need HOPE
I quit smoking this afternoon. Just a short while ago, I started feeling paranoid. 
I have sat here crying and digging up all the horrible past.
The fear and sadness are real. I just don't know how to stop it.
I even called my AS who is in a halfway house, just to hear another voice.
He's doing good and is now pretty stable, or at least getting there.
I know this is a passing phase in quitting, but this makes my 100th time to try to quit. It seems every time I try, I fail. I went 20 days last year then caved. I will go two days, cave, one week, cave.
I guess I just need comforting. I am all alone here, and it's downright depressing! Its the fearfulness I can't stand.
I hate feeling like this.
I have sat here crying and digging up all the horrible past.The fear and sadness are real. I just don't know how to stop it.
I even called my AS who is in a halfway house, just to hear another voice.
He's doing good and is now pretty stable, or at least getting there.
I know this is a passing phase in quitting, but this makes my 100th time to try to quit. It seems every time I try, I fail. I went 20 days last year then caved. I will go two days, cave, one week, cave.
I guess I just need comforting. I am all alone here, and it's downright depressing! Its the fearfulness I can't stand.
I hate feeling like this.
Member
Join Date: Apr 2007
Location: Okanagan BC
Posts: 328
I am glad t hear you decided to mquit smoking! It is a hard thing to do. I quit 5 years ago. It took me quite a few relapses to finally get it done! Don't be hard on yourself, everyday not smoking is better than a day smoking. whether it is one day or a week or 20 days. It helps put in perspective for me how hard it is for our addicts to quit.
good Luck and keep that chin up!!
good Luck and keep that chin up!!
To Life!
Join Date: Oct 2003
Location: Rhode Island
Posts: 9,293
Come on down to the nicotine forum. There, you will find much support and good information.
To battle the anxiety that comes with quitting, try to keep yourself busy. Exercise. Clean the house. Get that closet you've been meaning to straighten out done. Walk. And then, walk some more.
Drink LOTS of water. Flush out the toxins.
I hope we'll see you down there. This is one time where, being a quitter is really being a WINNER!
Shalom!
To battle the anxiety that comes with quitting, try to keep yourself busy. Exercise. Clean the house. Get that closet you've been meaning to straighten out done. Walk. And then, walk some more.
Drink LOTS of water. Flush out the toxins.
I hope we'll see you down there. This is one time where, being a quitter is really being a WINNER!
Shalom!
Leap of Faith Survivor
Join Date: Dec 2007
Posts: 4,555
Originally Posted by Wascally Wabbit 
I quit smoking this afternoon. Just a short while ago, I started feeling paranoid. I have sat here crying and digging up all the horrible past.
The fear and sadness are real. I just don't know how to stop it.
I even called my AS who is in a halfway house, just to hear another voice.
He's doing good and is now pretty stable, or at least getting there.
I know this is a passing phase in quitting, but this makes my 100th time to try to quit. It seems every time I try, I fail. I went 20 days last year then caved. I will go two days, cave, one week, cave.
I guess I just need comforting. I am all alone here, and it's downright depressing! Its the fearfulness I can't stand.
I hate feeling like this.
I have sat here crying and digging up all the horrible past.The fear and sadness are real. I just don't know how to stop it.
I even called my AS who is in a halfway house, just to hear another voice.
He's doing good and is now pretty stable, or at least getting there.
I know this is a passing phase in quitting, but this makes my 100th time to try to quit. It seems every time I try, I fail. I went 20 days last year then caved. I will go two days, cave, one week, cave.
I guess I just need comforting. I am all alone here, and it's downright depressing! Its the fearfulness I can't stand.
I hate feeling like this.
anyone you can call, go visit, maybe go for a walk , just get outside? if not maybe take a bubble bath with lots of candles and your favorite music and a nice cup of herbal tea???
wish I could pop in and stay a spell....hgang in there girl, and bravo choosing to quit again!!
get it, give it, grow in it
Join Date: May 2007
Location: Calif coast
Posts: 3,167
I have witnessed your strength here at SR.
you can do what ever you set your intention to do I would think.
One day at a time you can quit. You are just about through this day.
you can do what ever you set your intention to do I would think.
One day at a time you can quit. You are just about through this day.
StrivingToThrive
Join Date: Sep 2007
Location: san diego, ca
Posts: 425
Yes this is hard work.
And i understand the desire to fall into the pit. But don't go there. Pick up your literature and read. I like the bubble bath idea!
something seems to be in the air tonight.
Heres hugs and prayers:praying:ghug3
Cathy
And i understand the desire to fall into the pit. But don't go there. Pick up your literature and read. I like the bubble bath idea!
something seems to be in the air tonight.
Heres hugs and prayers:praying:ghug3
Cathy
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Join Date: Apr 2007
Location: Boston, MA
Posts: 17
I have no idea if I got lucky or if this is a method that works, but I have to pass on what got ME through quitting, about 16 years ago: I didn't really even WANT to quit, but there's a guy in Boston called "The Russian" (real name: Yefim Shubenstov) that claims to be a "bio-energetic consultant," or something -- I saw him, and never smoked again. Back then, it only cost $50. Whatta bargain!
I think what he did to me was hypnosis -- but it worked. The key, after visiting him, wasn't so much one day at a time as ONE CIGARETTE (not smoked) at a time. Every time I craved one, I said, "If you smoke this one, you're a goner. Just hold off and DON'T have this one. " Eventually, it became something I didn't even think about anymore. And I never thought this would happen to me, but I actually became one of those people really annoyed by secondhand smoke!
It is possible -- if I could quit, anyone can.
I think what he did to me was hypnosis -- but it worked. The key, after visiting him, wasn't so much one day at a time as ONE CIGARETTE (not smoked) at a time. Every time I craved one, I said, "If you smoke this one, you're a goner. Just hold off and DON'T have this one. " Eventually, it became something I didn't even think about anymore. And I never thought this would happen to me, but I actually became one of those people really annoyed by secondhand smoke!
It is possible -- if I could quit, anyone can.
Leap of Faith Survivor
Join Date: Dec 2007
Posts: 4,555
Originally Posted by cece
Yes this is hard work.
And i understand the desire to fall into the pit. But don't go there. Pick up your literature and read. I like the bubble bath idea!
something seems to be in the air tonight.
Heres hugs and prayers:praying:ghug3
Cathy
And i understand the desire to fall into the pit. But don't go there. Pick up your literature and read. I like the bubble bath idea!
something seems to be in the air tonight.
Heres hugs and prayers:praying:ghug3
Cathy
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Join Date: May 2007
Location: here and now
Posts: 1,291
I need to quit again, too.
The last time I did, i found myself getting real emotional-sometimes for no reason. i guess nicotine is a way of stuffing down emotions just like any drug!
The nicotine gum really helped me. They have that new thing now--chantrix. I hear it works.
Herbal tea really helped me, too--any kind. It is warm and relaxing, and has a nice flavor. try Gogi berry...it is good tasting-kinda sweet-and has lots of antioxidents.
if you can-try and get a massage-it will relax you and help get rid of toxins, too.
Good for YOU!!! You can do it!!!
The last time I did, i found myself getting real emotional-sometimes for no reason. i guess nicotine is a way of stuffing down emotions just like any drug!
The nicotine gum really helped me. They have that new thing now--chantrix. I hear it works.
Herbal tea really helped me, too--any kind. It is warm and relaxing, and has a nice flavor. try Gogi berry...it is good tasting-kinda sweet-and has lots of antioxidents.
if you can-try and get a massage-it will relax you and help get rid of toxins, too.
Good for YOU!!! You can do it!!!
Member
Join Date: Nov 2007
Location: Hackettstown, NJ
Posts: 692
I'm using chantix and its like a wonder drug - almost no cravings even the first day. Can you see if you can get it? My insurance even covers it although most don't.
Prior to the invention of chantix, I had quit once for 2 years usiing the patch and the nic gum - yeah I was able to quit but I was nuts. I cried for 6 months solid (no exageration). So I'm really glad there's an easier way now. I've got 2 months quit.
Truth is though, whichever way you choose to quit, each day gets a little tiny bit better than the day before and every craving passes (though they do tend to come back later!) as long as you don't smoke.
Prior to the invention of chantix, I had quit once for 2 years usiing the patch and the nic gum - yeah I was able to quit but I was nuts. I cried for 6 months solid (no exageration). So I'm really glad there's an easier way now. I've got 2 months quit.
Truth is though, whichever way you choose to quit, each day gets a little tiny bit better than the day before and every craving passes (though they do tend to come back later!) as long as you don't smoke.
Jujubee Queen
Join Date: Nov 2003
Location: Port Charlotte, Florida
Posts: 3,582
Wabbit,
Hugs to you. I'm a professional quitter like you, the longest I've lasted was 8 months once, but then something sets me off, and I'm smoking again.
WE can do this, practice makes perfect!
Do some good stuff for you today, okay?
Hugs to you. I'm a professional quitter like you, the longest I've lasted was 8 months once, but then something sets me off, and I'm smoking again.
WE can do this, practice makes perfect!
Do some good stuff for you today, okay?
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Join Date: Mar 2006
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((((Wascally))))) Hope you are feeling better today. Please know you are never alone...we are always walking with you. Good for you, trying to quit smoking...I hope images of how healthy and happy you will feel once you get through these early days of withdrawal will provide the comfort and strength you need to keep moving forward. It's such a tough thing to do and each day without nicotene is another healthier day for you. Hugs
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