Saw Chris yesterday~~~
 

I gave in and called him to say I was coming to visit. He was fine with that and 1/2 hour later I was at the door....Everythings fine there ..I'm beginning to think I have more of a problem then he does. He may have relapsed since he got out of Recovery but he told me he's working hard to stay clean. He's doing his readings everyday, starting to study the bible (with his gf)) and going to meetings. He's either pulling the wool over my eyes or I'm just so used to lies and deceit that I can't get on the right page. I feel better today and I know that I'm on my way to recovery also. Gotta let him go and find his way. I'm happy for today and so thankful that I'm beginning to realize that this is Chris's journey and our HP will take care of both of us. Thanks for being there (Phone conversations)) when I really thought I was falling apart. Smiles, Bonnie:a194:

work you recovery & let him work his. i am glad everything is good for you today. taking care of ourself works. hugs,

Hey girl, I was wondering how things were going....got a lot out of the visit, huh. onward and upward....good for you, Bonnie, yay!

Hang onto this memory... you might need to pull it out again later... I know I did.

((hugs))

I know girls, I'm not putting all my eggs in one basket. That'll take years. It took years to get to this stage and I know Chris will have many problems getting and staying straight but I'm just reading and praying everyday. I have to get better for him and myself. Just for Today though~~~I feel a bit calmer. Things can change in a heartbeat!!! I realize that. Hugs, Bonnie

I went through the same thing and still have my "days" where I can not settle in my soul.

It seems like I was almost worse for a while after she started to get better.

So then it was time to look in the mirror to see why.

I don' think we are ever the same, just a different version of ourselves.

I try to stay focused on just this day in fromt of me.

Glad we have this place to come to to share and read and learn.

Way to go Bonnie.
You're learning your own lessons.
I know how good it feels when to see your son sober and working to stay that way.
You get a glimpse at the possibilities for him.

Hiya Bonnie,
Gosh missed this the other day...I was wondering where you went off to!

He sounds like he is doing a great job on HIS recovery.
I think giving him some space is a good thing right now. Hopefully, you can trust him to concentrate on his recovery, and you can work on yours.



Hugs,