I am Powerless by my HP isn't

Old 08-08-2007, 11:49 AM
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I am Powerless by my HP isn't

My daughter is at the hospital to deliver our 6th grandchild. There are tons of emotions going thru my heart right now.

I know that she has used during this pregnancy. I know that precious little baby boy is in the hand of a power greater than me, her, or this disease.

She is definitely doing what addicts do - argueing with the nurses about wearing a hospital gown vs her sleep shirt, why does she have to wait 4 hrs between doses of demerol (sp?), why is everyone so mean to her? why can't she hit that mean nurse. quack, quack, quack.

She has been in & out of program like so many - so I calmly asked "Is it really worth losing your serenity over a hospital gown? how nice do you think everyone will be to you after you hit someone?" And she said "Yeah, but quack, quack quack"

And I said "I love you and I'll see you at the hospital as it gets closer to the time for delivery" and calmly hung up the phone. That was this morning. I love her, I love my grandson, but I love me too - enough to take a step back to take care of me.

She just called, it's getting close to time to go - my first instinct is to run away completely - but I need to go - I want to go - I want to see my grandson. I want to know if he is ok and yes, I really do want know if she is ok too.

This will be a tough few days, but even tougher when they go home - praying for guidance and direction on what to do about the situation then.

The more I grow in recovery, the more I learn, it almost seems the hardest this stuff gets -

Thanks for letting me share,
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Old 08-08-2007, 11:56 AM
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i'd go, rita. go and meet your grandson. please know i'm sending extra prayers out for the health and safety of that baby. blessings, k
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Rita do they test newborns there? They do here
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Old 08-08-2007, 12:05 PM
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Rita... what a difficult path for you to walk. Please go with our prayers for continued strength, compassion, patience and peace.

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Old 08-08-2007, 12:15 PM
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cindi,
I'm pretty sure they will test him - especially with her behaviors since being admitted last night. I keep reassuring myself this is not the first time the staff at this hospital have seen an addict have a baby. I'm sure they know what to look for and can read the "writing on the wall"

Thanks so much for the support and prayers.

I'll let you know tomorrow about my precious newest grandson.
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Sending prayers that your grandson is born safe and healthy. Also sending prayers that you find the strength to get through today with your daughter.
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Old 08-08-2007, 12:23 PM
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Hugs and prayers to you and the new little one. Sometimes it does seem to only get harder; it's a good thing we get stronger.
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Sending prayers for you, your grandson and your daughter. Hugs, Marle
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Ill pray that theres no long term effects on the baby. A friend of mine is raising her grandson cause he was born with traces of cocaine, he's a year old and still has lung problems and heart problems
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Sending prayers and hugs to all of you.
Special prayers that your grandson is completely healthy!
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Old 08-08-2007, 01:47 PM
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Blessings...how wonderful, a new grandbaby. Even the good times are tainted when addiction is part of the picture. Here's to peace of the mind as you greet this new adddition to your family.
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Sending prayers for you and your family Rita.
Can't wait to meet the 'lil guy
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Prayers that he is OK, Im thankful that my as hasn't been down this road, yet. Yet being the key word. I truly am thankful he hasn't brought any children into the life of an active addict, but the lord does work in very mysterious ways, so im praying for you her and him that this can be her time.
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Old 08-08-2007, 02:30 PM
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Rita,
God bless his little heart. He will bring a joy to your world. Is this her first baby?
I know you said this is the 6th grandchild. Mabe he will be what tuns her life around for the good.

Positive prayers..............Lois
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just sending my prayers for you ,your new grandson & his mom. may he be just the thing to wake her up. let us hear from you when you get home. lots of prayers & hugs for you.
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((((((Rita)))))))

Congratulations on the new grandson.
I hope the joy of seeing him overshadows everything else for you tonight.

Big hugs and prayers...
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there's nothing like seeing your grandchild right after he's born. It's a wonderful feeling.
I hope you have a wonderful experience with the baby, and peace with your dauthter.
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I'm praying for you and yours. My 1st grandson was born addicted to Methadone. He showed the effects of withdrawl right away. He was in the hospital for more than 3 weeks.
My husband and I have custody of him now. He will be 3 next month. He's healthy and happy. He's a little slow with his speech, but is smart as a whip. He's the light of our lives.
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