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Thank you all for your supportive words.
Every single thing everyone has said is right. It is time to let go.
I continue to become angry at myself for my resistance against acceptance that I cannot control another.
I know it is because I do not love myself right now or trust myself to take care of myself. I hope that this will come with time.
I am trying to be gentle with myself because I am harsh, cruel critic and must remember that I cannot expect perfectionism in recovery.
Battling such a boatload of irrational thoughts right now and trying to wade through the muck. They are pretty relentless so I am exhausted from trying to match them with rational ones.
Dolly- I took your advice and ordered some affirmation tapes that I hope to play while I’m sleeping and before bed.
I KNOW I have a life to live and I can flourish but right now it feels like I’m trapped under this rain cloud of fear.

I know I gotta grow up, start healing the parts that have been wounded as a child and start stepping up to the plate and taking personal responsibility for MY state of affairs.