Hi everyone.... been awhile....
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Hi everyone.... been awhile....
Alot has been going on in my life.... WOW within 4 months my whole world has changed...
Before my Dad passed away in March, Mark my coke/crack addicted b/f and I broke up, I had it with his taking off and going to porno shops, and doing drugs, I called the police and he lost his license for 24 hours.. (too bad)
Anyway, I can honestly tell you that life is soooooooooooooooooooooooooooo much better without him in it, I would have never thought it to be true, hadn't I took the leap and ended it.... I suffered with him for 8 years, two of which were somewhat good...there was abuse, both physical and mental, with holding money, power trips, it was bad, but I was so scared that I couldn't find anyone or that I could make it without him, that's what these sickos do, (no offense i mean mine) knock you down until you don't trust yourself at all, I seconded guessed myself so many times, thinking that if I'd just be this or just be that that the drug abuse would stop, the physical abuse would end....and "we" would be fine... with so much support and help from you angels on this board and also with the passing of my Dad, I KNOW that I deserve better than what I was getting, I was so sick with him, and didn't realize it until I've been away from it, my entire outlook on life is different, I'm not angry, I'm getting my confidence back, and just really enjoying life for the first time in so long...
I want everyone out there to know that life is meant to be enjoyed, not to be feared, life really is such a gift, a present, we don't need to live in bondage, that is not our creators plan, to love, to trust, to laugh all without that fear...... I hope that somehow I have touched someone to day, because I HAVE been where you are, and there is hope, there is light, there is love, no matter how dark it may seem now, I really want to thank all of you for helping me in my dark days, without you I know I would not be here...
Sorry it's so long, Love you all.....
God Bless,
Liz xoxoxo
Before my Dad passed away in March, Mark my coke/crack addicted b/f and I broke up, I had it with his taking off and going to porno shops, and doing drugs, I called the police and he lost his license for 24 hours.. (too bad)
Anyway, I can honestly tell you that life is soooooooooooooooooooooooooooo much better without him in it, I would have never thought it to be true, hadn't I took the leap and ended it.... I suffered with him for 8 years, two of which were somewhat good...there was abuse, both physical and mental, with holding money, power trips, it was bad, but I was so scared that I couldn't find anyone or that I could make it without him, that's what these sickos do, (no offense i mean mine) knock you down until you don't trust yourself at all, I seconded guessed myself so many times, thinking that if I'd just be this or just be that that the drug abuse would stop, the physical abuse would end....and "we" would be fine... with so much support and help from you angels on this board and also with the passing of my Dad, I KNOW that I deserve better than what I was getting, I was so sick with him, and didn't realize it until I've been away from it, my entire outlook on life is different, I'm not angry, I'm getting my confidence back, and just really enjoying life for the first time in so long...
I want everyone out there to know that life is meant to be enjoyed, not to be feared, life really is such a gift, a present, we don't need to live in bondage, that is not our creators plan, to love, to trust, to laugh all without that fear...... I hope that somehow I have touched someone to day, because I HAVE been where you are, and there is hope, there is light, there is love, no matter how dark it may seem now, I really want to thank all of you for helping me in my dark days, without you I know I would not be here...
Sorry it's so long, Love you all.....
God Bless,
Liz xoxoxo
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yes. Everything you have said is YES.
XABF is gone and life gets better because we really must focus on ourswelves.. and in so doing we really do walk down this recovery path quite nicely, thank you!
Good to hear from you!
XABF is gone and life gets better because we really must focus on ourswelves.. and in so doing we really do walk down this recovery path quite nicely, thank you!
Good to hear from you!
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I'm glad things are going well, Liz, and also happy that you stopped in.
It's a beautiful place we reach when we can live in peace and happiness and not always be looking over our shoulder or waiting for a shoe to fall.
Wherever you go, whatever life hands you, remember that we care and have been honoured to walk with you.
Hugs
It's a beautiful place we reach when we can live in peace and happiness and not always be looking over our shoulder or waiting for a shoe to fall.
Wherever you go, whatever life hands you, remember that we care and have been honoured to walk with you.
Hugs
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