cinderellawkids

Got an email from some members of an old forum I was on, that forum became non existent. SO ive referred them over here. Hope they join us.

itiswhatitis...

thanks everyone -

i will take everyone's advice to heart - if they can't even make a phone call i assume the counselor will see and tell them - they need to work a little more on themselves - a stable home and jobs would be good - thanks...

so i'm done talking about them for now - it seems as though everyone had nice weekends - mine was good but i haven't talked to my own mother in a few weeks - that's weird but its ok - i guess we just don't have much to talk about right now - she is focusing on my sister and seems to think it has to be one or the other - oh well - stop talking about sister... geez

got lots of flowers planted - now i need to paint some trim - i should get dressed and do that while it's nice out - have a great day all - i'll be back...

;love,
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kj0975

Well the good Dr said it wasnt scarlet fever and to take her right off the antibiotics and that its an allergy to something. So he cut her off all food lol. Well pretty much. I think it was from the sun though just found out she went to a tanning bed so I believe thats the main cause of all of this. Needless to say she is NOT going again. She is back in bed sleeping and still is a bit off. Your right benedryl has its benefits. Hmm maybe I can slip Scott some when hes cranky. lol.

Itis I agree if they cant make the effort to call everyday like planned than maybe its too soon. Even if they had to call collect. They are using u as an excuse cause really I dont care how I feel about the other person on the phone when I want to talk or see the girls nothing will stop me.

My DOC was totally different from crack though so I dont really know too much about that. I know addiction is addiction but I think each DOC is different. I know when the drug calls its almost impossible to get it out of your head and it will damn near drive u insane. Thats the part that sucks really bad if u can shut that voice off it would be so much easier to stay clean and focused.

cinderellawkids

That was me since Thursday Anvil. It sucks

cinderellawkids

I just cant bring myself to work today guys. Dont know whats wrong adn boss in a tissy pointing out everything that hasnt been done.

cinderellawkids

Your life is exciting ANvil. My only excitement was lil man downing a bottle of Ibprofen. But that certainly cured me of wanting drama.

Vacation....I want a vacation....
Best I get is spend 3 days on beach memorial weekend, Im going on household strike that weekend and the third day litle man will be with MIL so its me and bigger boys, wonder if they are too small to go canoeing?

rayofsunshine

Anvil, your upcoming vacation sounds great. Have fun!

Cindi, your wanting drama made me smile.

I got a little drama myself just now .... I'm off work today, doing a little work in the flower beds, outside, enjoying the peace and quiet and sunshine... kids are at school... just me ... then along comes the inmate road crew bus honking the horn and people hollering. AH crew comes this way... never seen him yet, but I'm guessing he was on the bus with all the commotion. Then while raking all the weeds I'd pulled to the woods, I got bit by fireants. So, I'm taking a needed break to recouperate for a few minutes from all the excitement and read some posts. LOL

teke

tyras show is porn and how it effects wives and marriages. they are also talking about sex addiction and the 12 step program as a solution. well i'm a bit tired right now, i've done 2 rooms of carpet and i'm not suppose to even do that kind of work, but i really needed to do it.

rayofsunshine

Teke, kick your feet up and take a nap after the Tyra show. You deserve it!

cinderellawkids

I started feeling weird over lunch with not hearing from AH still. Noone has heard from him or his bro. I called MIL. She is having a stronger day and said he is a survivor and when he was done with his marriage to his first wife he just disappeared, never said goodbye, left the state and was gone. I dont see that happening with us, I relationship was different. I know whats going on has nothing to do with his feelings for me. However, I do believe with him the more space between us and the longer the more its over. I still feel so confused. This weekend MIL and FIL are dropping doors off at the house, and if its quiet will go in and see if they are there, there things ect.

My feelings are so twisted right now, and I feel like people normally do during a break up

teke

wished i could ray, i think i'll try to do one more room but its time for me to take a rest maybe have a cup of coffee, the carpet is not really that dirty but i think that cleaning it helps the dusty smell, do that make sense. do you think that dust sometimes leaves an order or could it be something else.

cinder i feel the same way, though, with the situation with my ah, i just don't know, i think he did not leave on good terms, and while he was here claiming sober, because i was not so receptive of him and his advances, i did tell him that i wanted him gone and that i hated him. it feels like my actions may have been what sent him off using and whatever else he's doing again. i guess i kind of feel a little guilty but i really didn't mean all of what was said, but i did mean that because i didn't trust him not to cheat while on these binges, i couldn't allow myself to be involved with him like he may have thought i should have been.

cinderellawkids

Thanks Anvil. We aprted on good terms. Just after he got paid that day calling all day and then put me off the next day I told him Id had enough. His last words were Im sorry Ill amke it up to you I will win you back, a week later he called telling me I was his angel and I repeated I had nothing to say to him he needed to show responsibility and send me money. That was it. How long as it been...5 and a half weeks since we stopped residing together but 3 and a half weeks ago he showed up mid of night and stayed a few days, following week he worked, apparently its been down hill much worse since then as that was the last time either talked to anyone at all.

The letter is going out today, its just starting to feel like its really over, I guess

cinderellawkids

Like his mom said they always do something for moms day and today is middle sons bday. The last two years this time he was running from a warrant, using regularly but always managed to remember. This is the worst he's been, but we figure if they were doing well we would have heard from them.

cinderellawkids

Not too much. He's getting a hampster, and hopefully going fishing with My uncle on Sunday. We'll see all family Saturday at a big gathering after sis and her bo graduate. Tonite for dinner he wants pancakes

finallyout

hey everyone, back from the meeting from hell! let me just vent here a moment, turns out this meeting wasn't motivational but more of solving internal problems, well the biggest prob we have they decided "one" person needs to be in charge of a whole host of scheduling etc etc for about 10 crews, 4 managers and guess who they dumped that on!! ME!! i don't get paid nearly enuf for this crap, no one here knows how to communicate effictively so i'll get to chase everyone down now to solve all these issues, ********!! there better be a raise in all this, the only bright side now is that i will have no time to worry about AH. what a f*cking day. sorry but i'm ticked!

cinderellawkids

What kinda place do you work at finally?

teke

sorry that your meeting didn't exactly go as you thought, hope that there is a raise in all of this for you, you deserve one especially if they are adding more responsibilities. you have a right to be upset, employers sometimes expect more than they want to pay for. hope things work out for your benefit. still praying for ya

finallyout

i work for a large landscaping, nursery company. and apparently they all have their heads up their a$$e$! i really don't know how they've stayed in business for 20yrs.

cinderellawkids

I miss Kat

teke

can i please get a little feedback on my last post about my ah, and the way i'm feeling? i think i need a little encouraging