cinderellawkids

Like yu told me, dont rely on the money, make it extra and dont get excited about it until its in your hands

teke

i'm glad that i called childsupport yesterday but probably by the time they get the paper works done, he may not be working there any more. now he claims he's living in a motel and he's done that before, didn't take long before they pad locked his room and he was back at his moms house. he's just being him.

thanks cinder, i don't feel bad about it, he's an addict like you said.

kj0975

Teke how fun u went out!!!! I'm glad too. I am up and getting ready to go to my sisters and help her paint her house. I'm looking forward to it I think it will be fun. Plus I dont have to clock watch to run home and get ready for work. YEAH

cinderellawkids

Sometimes remembering that is the hardest part, but it helps everything else make sense. I rearranging my computer room just cant get happy with it.

Got candles burning and a nice waterfall by my computer

teke

you know cinder, i hate to say it but him relapsing is not all that bad to me and neither is him not sending any money. i don't rely on his money, he just called yesterday saying that he was gonna send some by my stepson. wasn't expecting anything before he called,and if he don't send anything, i still ok.

maybe i was holding my breath while he was in prison i don't know, he made a lot of promises that i decided to wait and see. other than that, i think what happened with me was that i had enough time away from him to finally realize that i was not crazy. most of that time, i wasn't working a plan of recovery from codependancy even though i was staying clean and sober. i mean i read the literature about codieism but i just didn't get it until i came back here, but by then, i guess i was in a better frame of mind and could better understand some of what you guys were trying to tell me. i stuck around until i was really mentally ill. i really didn't understand a lot of stuff by the time i got here. i didn't understand that the life that i was living with him was not normal. i thought that i HAD to stay with him no matter what. why? your guess is as good as mine.

teke

kj, yelp, i went out and had fun, i shot 3 games of pool and actually won one game. i don't really know how to play that well but i've been learning since christmas, i bought the kids a table.

cinderellawkids

Teke, for me I think I stayed because being married, being in a relationship (even without the other half) made me feel whole ina sick twisted way, but now I am working on making me whole. I still struggle with that part.

We all stay for a variety of reasons, we always believe the next time will be different. In part I still believe that but this time I want to see actions first

kj0975

I like playing pool not very good but I do have a good time playing. My niece loves me today her punishment for getting written up again is painting today. Why not grounding doesnt work. Plus she said I was just put here to ground her (boy shes good).

nogard

Another great day in recovery, didn't quit today.

Going beddy byes now.

Kevin

cinderellawkids

Does everyone else just have clutter everwhere?

teke

nonard, i forgot to tell you that i thought about you saying this when i went out last night. you're right, mind altering substances that means wine too where i come from.

teke

btw, nonard, i 'm glad that you made it through another day, your doing good. i'm cheering for ya and praying too

teke

i was just about to say that i cleaned all the clutter away, but i remembered that i didn't finish the storage area when i was doing my ah cleaning last wk.treat it like a project, do a little at a time

cinderellawkids

I got my well pump running all by myself!!!!!

Who needs a man for those thing. I feel so accomplished!!!!

teke

so whats a well pump? cinder

cinderellawkids

The thing the runs sprinklers and other outside water. The water doesnt come from the City, but from a deep well so you do not pay for it. Basically that means I can water my yard and let kids play in water without using city water

This house had been empty for almosta year so it was all dried up. I had to prime it to get the pump flow working.

cinderellawkids

Now I need to fertilize the yard (well a section with the fertilizer I ahve) and go to Lowes to price sprinkler heads. Some of them are broke and some busted under the grass roots, gotta dig them up.

The boys and I are gonna go to the library, rent movies, go get our tv from moms, go to chick fil a with free coupons we have and then come back and chill

cinderellawkids

Its a beautiful day here too. We got our free chick fil a lunch, played in the kids play place barrowed lots of books and movies from the library and are ready to relax

kj0975

Had a good day here too!! Little chilly though. Hey wheres Anvil? Come out comeout wherever u are. I hope loves pops in too!

Please I got so much clutter I cant take it but that will be my weeks project not like I gotta get up and go to work or anything.... sigh....

nogard

I do not have a penny so here is 5 cents