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Old 05-11-2007, 04:58 PM
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hey teke the porn stuff is just another sysmptom of our dis ease in my opinion and if I have a drink or any drug its a relapse. How about a huge ((((((((((cuddle))))))))) from me instead.

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He looked at porn on clean in between days that I was working, so I dont know. They say sex is poor mans cocaine and he wanted all the time when not using so maybe that was his way of holding off till I got home?

About the wine, only you can answer that question. Watch out for mind tricks. What about the wine appeals to you? Can something else relapse what is appealing? Grape juice amybe sparking grape juice. Herb tea for calming effect?

Think about your motives
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Old 05-11-2007, 05:29 PM
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sorry I have to post a post to get to the recent posts weird huh. Anyone else having this problem?
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Old 05-11-2007, 05:37 PM
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No my only problem is no ones posting.

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Old 05-11-2007, 05:38 PM
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here is a post cinders
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Old 05-11-2007, 05:42 PM
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Sorry about the job KJ... enjoy the unemployment for a little while and the no weekends! May God closed that door because he has something better in store
for you. More will be revealed....
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Old 05-11-2007, 05:54 PM
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Teke, sounds like you need a fun night out. Just a little fun can help you start to feel a little better. Me & the kids are going to the drive in tomorrow night with my sister & her kids to see Spiderman 3. Praying for ya!

Cinder, glad you boss is gonna call grandpa. You are so wise... grandpa will see this eventually.
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Old 05-11-2007, 05:57 PM
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Thanks no gard.

My HP is really taking care of me. Those who may remember my son broke my tv last weekend. My mom and step dad stopped buy briefly to drop off several loaves of bread they picked up at the bread store and said I can use their older 27 inch until I can get one so Im going to go get it tomorrow and then put one at a pawnshop on layaway.( HAHA Layaway at a pawnshop sounds funny)

When I picked up my littlest his daycare provider had 3 grocery bads of snack items she said she was going to donate and she was giving them to me. Yeah we have popcorn and cookies this weekend.

And yesterday when I was running around at work someone offered me a xanax. I said no and didnt think twice. (That is so not me, usually I think yeah Ill save it for later.) I actually talked myself out of a few anxiety attacks with the crazy trial weeka t work and overall I remained positive and upbeat. My boss and I had no altercations. The case went away at the last minute, but my job was done with no *itching. My boss told me today Thank you for handling things in sucha fine professional manner and for staying strong. He said my recovery was shining. I think his was too 6 months ago we would have been yelling and screaming at each other all week
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Old 05-11-2007, 06:00 PM
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Cinder, glad you boss is gonna call grandpa. You are so wise... grandpa will see this eventually.
My boss and I talked about it. He's gonna right a long recommendation letter,to whom it may concern about what a delightful bright employee I am and send it to grandpa(More 30ish dont ya think). He thought it was quite funny.

Sunshine just noticed your location says wishing I was on the beach and mine says by the beach. LOL
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Old 05-11-2007, 06:23 PM
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Yep, your HP is definitely looking after you, Cindi. It's amazing the little things that happen to make you notice he is there even in the midst of things sometimes going wrong. Thats nice about the TV,especially for your little ones entertainment. That letter sounds great from the boss!

I'm wishing I was on the beach, LOL... I will get to go in June. My sister invited us to go with her family on vacation. All I have to bring is spending money. My kids are so excited. You are so lucky to be so close to the beach!
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Old 05-11-2007, 06:49 PM
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Im happy for you sunshine. Im so close but we never seem to go. Im planning on going Memorial weekend though. My mom has a timeshare where year round her and a guest can use a super nice resort pool deck so Im gonna hang there that weekend and pretend Im farther from home
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Old 05-11-2007, 07:44 PM
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That sounds pretty cool. My parents used to have a time share I think in Kissimee (sp). We used to go hang out there and really no need to even leave the resort. I wish they still had that we would go sometime.

Thanks everyone for the kind words I really think everything happens for a reason I will just have to wait and find out that the reason is. Maybe something great is just around the corner who knows. I hope so I also hope I get approved for unemployment too that would be nice. I'm kinda releaved though too I really didnt like the job and I totally hated the hours and all the time too so this is for the best finally I can have a life. Well hang out here more lol.

Cind great on the TV seems things have been really going great for u lately its about time huh.

We are going to watch the movie "The Persuit of Happiness" gotta go hes waiting for me!
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Old 05-11-2007, 07:47 PM
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Me too well I hope I enjoy it too. I will be amazed if I stay awake through the whole things. Usually I get too comfy on the couch and wake up with the credits rolling. If it really grabs my attention though I will stay awake.
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just popping in to say goodnight, kj, Pursuit of Happiness is my new fave movie, talk about inspiration and I'm sorry about your job, but you know what they say about when one door closes, another one opens. teke, i think ray is right, a night out, even just window shopping or something might be just what you need, sh*t sometimes I just jump in the good ole minivan and blast radio and take a drive! cindi, can't wait to hear what your grandfather has to say about the letter! hope everyone has a great weekend and a nice mothers day if I don't get a chance to get online this weekend, got some plans with kids. I was feeling a bit in a funk but reading some stuff here as helped, just missing him as usual i guess. talk to yous later.
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Old 05-12-2007, 02:22 AM
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well i did go out, had an ball, but guess what? i only had sprite .
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Im proud of you. Teke
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Old 05-12-2007, 05:56 AM
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checking in this morning, just got a call on my cell from somebody at ah's job, they say, he was suppose to show up for work this morning, i guess he didn't call in, thats normal, maybe he's late i don' t know for sure but i do know what i think.
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Old 05-12-2007, 06:12 AM
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Teke, try not to think of it, just remember he's an addict and thats what addicts do.
You have to try to separate yourself from all that, and only then will you start to heal. Only then will the pain stop
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Old 05-12-2007, 06:19 AM
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well cinder, i feel ok about that this morning. he not showing up for work is normal for him. that only means that he must be using and that if my stepson didn't already get the money from him, that he won't be sending any.
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Old 05-12-2007, 06:22 AM
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Teke, I fear your like me, all the time you were separated before, and all the time he was in jail you may have grown a bit but ultimately you were holding your breath.

At least that is what I think I was doing, in the nae f recovery, but I wasnt really recovering. Until I made him leave, not out of anger, but in wanting a different life I wasnt really changing. Today I see sucha difference in me and my kids, that I never saw even when he was gone for months. We are recovering, course we have our set backs, but we are healthier and happier than ever before
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